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Finding Love Again- Chapter 2: Getting Hooked

Short story By: Balaji Iyer
Memoir



Continuation...


Submitted:Sep 5, 2008    Reads: 130    Comments: 5    Likes: 5   


The breeze from outside, like opium, prodded the passengers to sleep. In matter of minutes the shuffling and restless bodies were at rest. As if nothing had happened at all.
I was awake. So was she, Shruti!
It was as if the entire episode of the train halting with a sudden screech and moving again was only to shake things up for me.
It was around 1:00 a.m.
The train had gained momentum, cutting across tracks, making that heavy thidhick-thidhek… thidhick-thidhek… war cry. The strong gush of air from the window was making it difficult to keep the eyes wide open.
For the next five minutes we did not initiate any conversation. Perhaps it was my turn to utter my name. Make friendly conversation and then linger on until the conversation died down for lack of common ground. I was perhaps not interested to make the futile attempt.
But we kept stealing glimpses at each other… eyeing each other's faces from the top corner of our eyes pushing up our brows. There was some connection after all.
I was still inert. She sensed that perhaps. Girls sense a lot of stuff. That too girls wearing kurtees are extra perceptible or so I believe.
Picking up my book again she flipped a few pages in the dark. Then she reluctantly, in an attempt to strike a conversation, asked "do you believe in ghost stories?"
I was not really in a mood for a prolonged conversation. So an evasive answer came out promptly "not really". I thought it would perhaps ensure foreclosure of this conversation.
But fortunately, at least in hindsight, it did not. She was a journalist, a persistent one at that.
We then talked, connected, contradicted, solved, resolved, disconnected for the next five hours of our overnight journey.
By the end of it, I was unsure of what I wanted from the train journey. A temporal shift from the clear objective of getting down at Dehradun, travelling to the end of the world and then falling off.
She too was headed towards the hills. The Queen of Hills. Mussoorie.
She had a purpose and I did not. At least not in the 'normal' worldly meaning of things. I was just detaching myself from the pigments of pain in my life. She on the other hand was out there to prove herself. Prove herself, as journalist, more so as an individual. I had no such longings left. Proving and disproving have proved to be of no real use to me.
I could, even in the dead of the night train compartment, see her sharp cutting eyes… they were big and penetrating, teasing and provoking. The kind of eyes that settle and unsettle feelings in men, all sorts of men.
Breaking my train of thoughts… she interjected.
"I am a journalist working for The Statesmen and currently on the lifestyle beat. However, art and culture fascinate me a lot and am hell bent to prove myself as a good enough scribe on this subject."
As for me, I once fancied myself a journalist. However, did not have the perseverance to pursue it as a profession. I still fancy myself a writer though. I did not tell her any of this, not at least initially.
I just displayed a forced pleasant surprise on my face on hearing about her profession. In all of this, I was being pulled towards her. Not sure for what, not sure why…
Then she gave me a shocker.
"I am on my way to interview Ruskin Bond", and she smiled half expecting me to jump up and finally let my guard down.
I must confess, I was taken aback that she was headed to interview Mr Bond. It all suddenly made sense to me. She was not too interested in an average looking stranger but in the book the chap was carrying along. Season of Ghosts!
It all made sense. Her initial quizzing on my belief around ghosts… but was it mere coincidence that she had to park herself on my berth for all this conversation to happen.
Well, I decided to give in to the conversation. I probed, for the first time, on her interest in an old, sedate man like Bond. He was surely not a James Bond to kindle a fondness in most young girls of these days.
She gave me an abstract answer and started appreciating his writings, his course of life and his personality. She was totally sold out on Mr Bond. In times when girls drool over Daniel Craig, I was sharing the train berth with a girl who was sold out on Mr Ruskin Bond. I was impressed.
But I kept my gladness to myself. I have, for most part of my life, revered writers of his stature, brilliance, character and honesty. Over time I have, to an extent, developed a stiff possessiveness for all concepts that related to the 'literary and transcendental'.
Just hearing someone else praise my heroes gave me both a feeling of exhalation and chieftain possessiveness.
Before my mind reeled under its own train of thoughts, I pulled myself out so as to continue my conversation with this beautiful girl by my side. My unknown thought partner for the journey.
She kept taking about some of the stories Ruskin had written, the feel it left in her head and how all this summed up her trip to the hills. I, on my part, at carefully chosen intervals, gave her well thought after reassurance that I could understand what she meant.
But soon I was out of grip. I could not control or temper the conversation… I spoke from the heart. Carefully chosen words gave way to flurry of abstract thoughts from a mind that has seen more world than what those carefully thought words could have carried.
That was the last blow. Shruti saw what I was potentially made of. She was, at a nightly hour, dealing with a poet whose heart has drifted. This kind of gave her a weird zeal to understand me better.
We started completing each other's sentences. Thoughts were only half shared and understood in toto. It was racy, intellectual with a hint of underlining attraction.
I was either ways, chipping at my edges. Attraction made its contribution. Little scraps of my personality were pulled towards her magnetic eyes.
I intent to clarify... this was not love. Far from it. Far from such beaten concepts.
Just then the train started to slow down… it was entering a small two-platform station. It was really late at night and the dim glow of the platform flowed into our compartment like a magic carpet… the light struck Shruti's face and I for the first time saw her face as it was. Any man would have skipped a breath. She looked back and perhaps through her eyes, teasing smile and slight tilt of her head reassured me that I was tolerable to look at.
The direct exchange of glances, for the first time in some light, put us together for the next few days.
Togetherness is a strange thing. It smelled of certainty. I was running away from all such certainties. But the next few days were a roller coaster for me. And I am not exaggerating.




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