I've just put my 9 month old son to bed and I'm wondering how I would feel if I never got the chance to do that again. How would I feel if I never got to see the smile on his face as I pick him up out of his cot? Or hold his hand or simple things such as dress him, feed him, bathe him? My heart would be ripped from my chest in complete and utter despair. It's the most simple things you do for your child that are the most special.The joy I feel when I see him taste a new food for the first time, or hold him in the bath as he kicks and splashes. There is nothing more beautiful in the world than a child's, your child's, smile. The feeling of knowing that I made him! The pride! It's an honest to God miracle and there's no other feeling in the world that compares to it,or even comes close to.All I have to do is look at him and my day brightens! He's only 9 months old and already he has acquired the ability to wrap mammy around his little finger! He knows all he has to do is smile at mammy and there's a milky bar coming his way! I can't help it! I know I shouldn't give in and spoil him but my heart just melts when I look into his big round, beautiful blue eyes! He has just started to "bottom shuffle" and it's the funniest, and cute, thing I ever saw in my whole life! It takes so much effort and he's exhausted by the time he gets from the armchair to the sofa. The concentration on his face makes it all the more funnier! But he makes it to the sofa and looks at me with the biggest grin on his face! And I just collapse into hysterics because It seems as if he's saying " Ha! I may be a baby but I'm not stupid!".
He talks non-stop now too. Well if you can call " ah-wah, da da, mam,mam,mam, a da,etc." talking! He has conversations with himself all the time! And boy, does he have a temper! My older son who is seven, and just as clever,bright and completely gorgeous (even if I do say so myself!) was playing with his brother the other day and he took a little ball off his(baby's) walker tray and well he went absolutely ballistic!He screamed and banged and tensed his whole body until he was literally shaking and red in the face! Needless to say my eldest gave the ball back in double-quick time! He's only young so I let him away with it as there's no point in trying to discipline a person who can't even talk or stand yet! But let me tell you, he won't be able to play the " I'm only a baby" card forever!
His two front teeth cut through this week so he has four altogether now.He looks so cute! There was hell to pay though if anyone annoyed him! Cutting teeth is a very hard and painful business you know!! And we do know! He made sure we all knew! Even Milky Bars didn't do the trick this week! Nothing contented him. He didn't want to eat, he didn't want to sleep, he didn't want to play. Nor did he want to sit in his walker or lie on his playmat.Or stand up or sit on your knee. So basically we've been running around like headless chickens trying to satisfy a baby who didn't want to be satisfied! I've had headbutts and slaps and pinches and bites galore this week! Yet did it bother me? No. Because I knew my baby was in pain.And however it may have looked, I knew he wasn't lashing out at me and the rest of the family on purpose but only because he was hurting and he had no other way to express it. Anyway, pinching, slapping, the whole lot is part of parenthood! Until they're at an age where you can discipline them, it's only to be expected! And I wouldn't have it any other way in all honesty. Parenthood is a joy. I love it. I do wish there was less exhaustion involved but hey, you can't have everything! I've probably bored you stiff with all this ranting and if so, well tough! I'm a proud mother,I've a right to show-off!
Please say a prayer for Madeleine McCann who still hasn't been found, and also for her parents Kate and Gerry who must be going out of their mind with worry. XxXx