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Darklady's Story of Her life

Short story By: Darklady
Memoir



I wrote this story years ago for my blog on yahoo 360º, it talks about myself, it's an unsual short story about my life till that moment ....I hope you enjoy it!!! I must warn you that it's completely different from whatever you might have read ..


Submitted:Jul 16, 2011    Reads: 29    Comments: 2    Likes: 1   


Once upon a time there was this girl named Daisy. She was the newest and the youngest member of a big family.....I dare to say that she was the wild flower of that huge garden full of old trees and grass . Daisy was different from the others , she was a dreamer and a believer, very strong, courageous and will power child, however, as time went by, that wild flower grew up surrounded by difficulties and problems though not of her own!!

As you might as well know, it's not that easy to be a wild flower in a old garden, where trees are loosing their leaves and their life feeling threatened by all that is new and fresh; they always tend to delay the growth of the youngest seeds. Nevertheless, in spite of being a sweet, happy and kind child Daisy soon found out that she would have to fight for her aims and that would not be an easy thing to do .....

Always surrounded by her family problems she started to built her own defenses against that crazy and wild garden in which she was born. Soon she became a teenager , wilder than before, with stronger believes that she could change the world.....yes , yes .... our wild flower believed that she alone could make it .... Poor innocent child !!!

All the sweet in her was replaced by a strong will of revenge, of conquering .....well you know how teenagers can be tempered, it's quite usual , all the hormones jumping within their bodies and their brains feverish with ideas ... but Daisy wasn't like that... no.... she was very controlled though revolted.... and why is that? Simple ..... our wild flower wanted to grow up, wished things were different, wondering why people can be so mean, so jealous, so envy, so malicious, cold..... she couldn't understand why the old trees kept her prisoner in her own garden.....that wasn't fair !!

Through out the years Daisy became stronger and arrogant , she needed no one.. She needed no more pain or burdens in her life .... our wild flower felt lost in that garden and so scared she was she built an invisible wall around her where there was no door, no window , no nothing just her all by herself ...In this way she believed that no one could hurt her, unless she permitted it...Very soon she realized that being alone wasn't that good at all... deep inside this wild, strong, decided and young flower was just a fragile, lonely, sad flower seeking for help without knowing it .... in her heart she knew she needed somebody to lean on......

Unhappy in her friendships, in which she gave so much and got nothing in return, even in some cases all that she has got was treason... betrayed by her supposed best-friend..... her first innocent love ripped away by that jealous creature supposedly friend...... Daisy could never forgive nor forget that till today..... all her innocence vanished that day .........

From that day Daisy decided that no one would make of her a foul again - poor child - her heart betrayed her mind so many times .. no matter what she did or pretended to be outside the invisible wall deep inside she knew that she wasn't like that., she knew that her soul and heart were crying for help , for love and tenderness ....however, more and more she built her defenses till the day she thought that nothing could harm her... the wild flower grew up and became a beautiful though and cold woman.

What others may or may not think about her wasn't important for her.....nothing could knock down her wall, no sir ....she built it well ....the only feeling that Daisy knew was hate.. Hate for everything and everybody... She trusted no one .....her only friend was her journal.. yes.... Daisy used to write on her journal where she could write all her true feelings ....where she could free her soul and in that way clear her mind to face the following day.. she did this for years......

One day when I though that my sweet wild flower was lost forever something happen....she finally met someone who would open a door on that invisible wall of hers ....Did you think that a thing like this could never happen? Well if you do you were wrong!!!!

This bush came along from nowhere and could irritate my sweet Daisy... yes yes ..... this is a good thing , for if he could annoy her that meant that she felt something for him... That bush was a very arrogant, strong pain in the ass young boy ( in her opinion of course) ......It seems that he could see a light in our Daisy although she wasn't interested..... It happen that one year later destiny decided to join them ...... somehow Daisy picked up on the telephone and rang him ..... It was the first step among many of a long walk for our wild flower.....This will strong bush , after a very long time of hard work , managed to break the wall and made the fresh air invade our Daisy's heart..... he taught her that life isn't just pain, that she could love and be loved , that she could trust in some people .....

Actually, they made their own garden, with no chains, no pain, no treason ...Daisy was happy..and free ...... finally she could show her true soul, her deepest feelings and share her thoughts .... he was the best thing that could ever had happened to our wild flower......Our bush worked so hard to make our wild flower reborn and he managed .. he loved her the way she was .. not what she pretended to be .. she knew that she could hide nothing from him... even her dark corners were enlightened by him.....he couldn't let her be lost again ... never more .....

Nevertheless, years passed by and the new world and the new situation made things change again.... Daisy had a dilemma in which she felt trapped ......Bad karma I must say ......in this new job of her people didn't accept her the way she was .... no sir .... again she suffered by the hands of others and again she took her weapons though tired of fighting ...... her whole life has been a war and when finally our wild flower felt that she could lay down her weapons a new battle came along !

Daisy has never felt so depressed as she is nowadays ..... she feels like she is carrying all the burden of the world on her back!! Due to her strong personality and character some colleagues made her life difficult at work all over the pass 7 years - so many punishments not for what she might have done , no way, it was all because some people couldn't deal or even admit that someone younger than them would make the difference.........how sad this is .....If only you knew our wild flower you would know that Daisy never let nobody put her down or even humiliate her... no way ...... she was and is very proud and she always made her stand and kept her dignity till the end , never put her head down!! Of course that all this has a high price to pay where she works .......Soon she had the fame of being rude and arrogant !! No matter what she does she will never get rid of that image ever again...... It's like a dark shadow !!!

Before this and fed up of all the problems and battles Daisy decided to become a better person - or at least she thought this was the right thing to do . She made a huge effort to control her temper in order to coop with her work colleagues and everyone else ....Our wild flower was being dominated !!!! When she felt like exploding she tried to smile and to control her fury....It seems that everybody was very happy with this change..... everybody but Daisy!!!

Deep inside Daisy never stopped of being wild and deep inside she was crying for help, longing to go away from all this ....... she controlled herself till the day that she could no more !!!! Impatient, revolted, angry, unhappy and lost she found herself ..... In this search of sympathy and acceptance she lost her identity.... and she realized that she is not a better person! She became as cynic and hypocrite as her work colleagues and she hates herself for this........

Never in her entire life she had to cheat herself to get along with anyone, in spite of her personality she was always accepted as she was and no one ever tried to change her till the day she started on this job!!!

The question in here is that Daisy is going through what I call an existential crisis ....lost in her pain and in her darkness, she feels trapped without knowing where to turn.....She feels like dying inside and each day she wakes up and try to be strong to face the day .......... Our wild flower is fading away because she knows that her bush is sad for all this ......Our not so strong bush is unhappy because he can't imagine his life without the sweet wild flower he knew years before ... he can't forgive those who harm so much his Daisy........

Daisy knows that she can't give up life this way ..... no one will defeat her!!! All she needs is a time to meditate on everything that happened, in all the changes she went through....... She needs to find herself again so that she can be happy again and feels fulfilled ......

I believe that our wild flower will flourish again with a brand new power ..... she will make it ....





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