Hiding from Myself

Friday July 6th 2007

Whenever there is a moment of satisfaction something is right there to destroy it. Music changes and your entire feeling and train of thought changes. I am listening to a CD I made today and it is enjoyable and relaxing.

I can do this thing I need to do and it will be hard but I will do it. People may think one way of me, but I can know for a fact it isn't that is the greatest knowing it and yet others guess. That feeling is great. And it is positive and not irrational. There will be trials as with anything, but it will and can be done.......

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I was listening to music when I wrote this entry and I am pretty sure it is referencing me wanting to come out of the closet or maybe it is talking about me wanting to become straight. I am pretty sure it is referencing me coming out of the closet.

It is pretty ridiculous that not even I know what I was talking about. The reasoning behind this loss of information is again me hiding from myself and not wanting to tackle this issue whatsoever.