12:20 Sunday 29th
Well, I've done some
more math and I am still hoping my brother won't get involved in
this porn fiasco. Mom has taken a nap as if to sleep her problems
away. I bet the porn she found was gay porn, but she can't prove
it. HA HA! All the teachers will probably be told and so will the
kids she teaches. Here is what will happen; she will say I found
some not so good stuff on the computer. Then everyone will get
the idea. She can't keep her mouth shut. Grrr. Well I have about
an hour of work left on homework. If that... And I have 9 hours
to do it so.... I guess I will break from math and do gazettes.
Drawing and labeling 1 every hour for 2 hours each taking 5
minutes to do ha ha should get me through the day.
8:46 later that same
I don't think things
could have been better. My brother never showed up. I got a lot
of work done. Still, I am not finished because I am lazy. I don't
think the gay porn is on there anymore. Right now things feel
great. Only twelve days left until we get out of this apartment.
I got student of the month this past week. The reward was great
but I am hard to please.
The reason I wanted
to share this journal entry is because not all of the information
was disclosed in the actual pencil on paper writing that is found
in my journal. I don't recall the date I started crossing out any
references to being gay but I decided to lie to myself about my
sexuality. I thought I would be able to escape my problems of
being homosexual by crossing it all out.
After years of
attempting this and various stupidities all things failed, and
that's when I decided for mental security it would be healthier
to come out of the closet regardless of its current status in
society. That status is of course unaccepted in the main stream.
It would only make sense to hide my gayness by crossing it out
even if I was the only one reading my journals because it is just
to insane to be attracted to the same sex.
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