Sometime in April or
May of 2008
Why can't I just
live the way I want. I want to be free instead of trapped in
routine. I find amazing to see the lifestyles of dumber species
living so simple, but the human brain came and it trapped
Our knowledge and
capabilities trap us into holding back our feelings and instead
of directly working for food we do deeds for others all with no
purpose other than a good feeling.
It's really the same
a wolf kills it's prey. It stalks it and kills it for survival.
It works for it, but a wolf as a species is intelligent and each
has a place.
We need food and
water and we will do ridiculous things to get it. We will perform
like dogs to get what we want.
Those who separate
people from animals are goofy. We originated from them and lived
along side them.
God is right, the
one who discovers God can write their own bible.
Why should I get up
tomorrow to do something I don't want to do and why should I
worry about that disappointing them? After all, all I need is
food and water, and with my human intelligence I can access that
with almost no consequence.
Other than the trap
of human intelligence. I must obey the law. I must not strive to
be different because to be different is suicide.
happened to me in a peculiar way at this time in life. I had
completely thrown out being gay to deal with and however shaded
that by writing somewhat metaphorically. It could be completely
understandable that the saying to be different is suicide is
referencing being gay is suicide and coming out of the closet is
suicide. However you interpret it I can assure you this is wrong
because my thinking had drastically been altered.
Because of my daily
frustrations whether it be homosexuality or just people in
general pissing me off or even the possibility of pleasing me I
started thinking on a broader scale. I no longer started thinking
through a microscope to see minor details that had to fit into my
life like I had tried when trying to make homosexuality fit with
being a Lutheran.
I started thinking
through a telescope that looked out into the open. Religion, what
is its purpose? Science, what is its purpose? Math, what is its
purpose? Those questions correlated with other ideas and that's
how I started coming up with my seven things about everything
which will not be discussed any further. In a sense this is when
I just threw out relationships and gayness and focused my energy
to creating a moral lifestyle I could accept on my own as well as
others could accept.