Seth and Emily sat together on a log that
lay across the hill. "So," Seth started, "what did you want to
Emily timidly placed her hand on his knee.
"Why do you want to date her?" she asked.
A chipmunk ran by momentarily interrupting
their concentration. "I don't know Em, it's mostly to distract
myself from you," he said looking to the crisp fall
She looked at her hand that was comfortably
resting on his knee like it was meant to be there. That was the
problem. She was too comfortable aroud him. "I have a boyfriend,"
Emily said, refusing to meet his eyes. Her head was already
planning what was coming. the nerves made her stomach
The sigh that escaped his lips hung over
them, not being commented on. She knew she was hurting him.
Eventually he spoke up. "Let's walk up the hill," he
Emily agreed by a nod of her head and
followed him up. The way that this conversation had been going
was better than she had expected, but it still hurt. Seth had
been her best friend for years, and he always had loved her, she
knew that. Just now when she was already in a strong relationship
and he was getting into one, she realized her own feelings for
him. It hurt her too.
There was a slight awkward silence between
them when they finally sat down. It was a decision she would
make. "Hey Seth? Can we try not to have so many secrets between
us?" Emily asked with as much strength as she could possibly
He smiled and nodded. "Of course and to
start things of, I'm going to ask Rebecca out next week."
A strong wave of jealousy suddenly hit Emily
burying somewhere in the pit of her stomach. She couldn't believe
it. He wasn't waiting for her.
"Hey you know I've always kind of wanted to
do something," she admitted looking down at the floor. She knew
this was wrong, but it wasn't stopping her.
Seth looked up suddenly. "Yeah?" he asked,
raising his eyebrows. She looked as deep as she could into his
eyes. Everything was swirling around in her mind: confusion,
jealously, and a hint of something she didn't want to admit
Emily covered her eyes in embarrassment. "I
can't see you!" he sang. She put her hands down again.
Her eyes found his and he laughed. "I'm not
giving up, you have to tell me!"
She walked over to the rocks and sat down.
"You're so stupid," She told him.
There was a sigh and then he came over.
"What did I do?" he asked softly.
She tried to swallow her nervousness. "It's
what you haven't done," she told him before standing back up and
walking to the picnic table.
He walked in between her and the picnic
table and she covered her eyes again. "So what is it?" he
Emily shook her head as millions of shivers
hit her. She could feel him leaning to her, softly talking. She
wasn't sure if she was going to puke. Seth's nose touched hers.
"You sure?" he asked, his breath lightly tickling her skin. She
shook her head, lying but not being able to do anything else and
took her hands off her eyes. They quickly made eye contact and
A thousand emotions racked Emily's stomach;
guilt for her boyfriend, for Seth, but the emotion that was the
highest was that this was almost right.
Almost, but not quite enough.