I hate it... when your walking the hallways of your crappy school
and you see one of the 'Populars' taking a fashion statement that
you have, or like. Such as a Mohawk for example. I'm madly in
love with them... but then they took it. It's for their hockey
team, but I hate it. I'm not saying they don't look good in them,
but it's... just... I don't want them to have mohawks.
I'm also sick of having to explain things to people about why I'm
different, or wearing something like black eyeliner thick instead
of one thin line. I mena, come on... it's my life, my face. I
should be allowed to do whatever I want with it, depending on
what it is. Why can't people see that I am me, because I can't be
anyone else? It's so, comlicated to try and explain who I am,
because I don't even know that.
I get looked at funny because I'm a wild female, and isn't afriad
to be open to some stranger about something. It's not my fault
that I'm like this. I blame the media...
No one will accept me in my school, well, apart from the students
that are like me, or have just grown used to the fact that I'm
standing beside them weather they chose to accept it or not.
Is it a crime ot want to listen to heavy metal, or punk music?
No. If it was, then there wouldn't be such genders of music. I'm
not allowed to listen to that kind of music around people,
because they hate me for it. It's like I'm the number one perso
to hate in my school becuase I'm a big fat gothic loser person...
Though i'm not gothic, I'm not a loser [From what people tell
me... ], and I'm not fat [From what people say... ].
Some days I can't even think of a reason to get out of bed in the
morning and drag my butt to school. Let alone anywhere else.
I'm judged, like others in my school because, "I'm not pretty
enough." "I'm a gothic freak who's obsessed with writing poetry
and stories." I'd continue with the quotes, but my supply teacher
is looking at me oddly...