HELLO.

Heyy hun. My name is Emily or EmiJo as most of my friends call me.

I took my first breath on September 26, 1994, so Im thirteen years of age haha.. Theres a lot of stuff that I could put, but Im not really sure about what it should be..haha you probably wont even read this lol. So..Here goes.
My friends know that  Ima very crazy,random and wacky person. :D "Im the type of girl who will bust out laughing in dead silence about something that happened yesterday" haha. Pretty much sums it up, huh?

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iF your name isn't courtney plz dont read this XD just continue about your normal friendly day . :]

oKaY COURTNEY FINE!!! U WANT ME TO ADMIT IT?? WELL HERE YA GO!!* :DD
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this is clearly driving me insane but o well because not saying will make matters worse!! XP

YES   I STILL LOVE HIM!!

i HAVE TRIED

REALLY HARD

to get ova it

BUT I CANT!!

I AM STILL ABSOLUTELY IRREVOCABLY IN LOVE.

blue text=questions i just know your gonna ask me..

teal text=my response

Why? you ask?

I really dont know!! i just know that everytime i look at something i catch myself thinking about him like ..for example..i could look at a green apple..wanna know wat my thoughts are??

oh it's green..that's my favorite color.. :] i wonder.....oh that's rite ..it's dan's favorite color too!! -gasp-

it's absolute insanity!!!

Why can't you just bang your head on the wall and get ova him?

IDK ..maybe it's just because everything he said was so sweet and kind and charming, and adorable and it made me love him even more..

So why are you depressed again?

BECAUSE everything he ever said to me was a lie, every time he said i love you it was just a joke..just something to woo me into getting what he wants and i feel ABSOLUTELY horrible because i let him do that

If he was such a jerk why cant you get over him?

OMG THA GOLDEN QUESTION..once again .. the only logical thing ive been able to come up with is that i really am stuck up on him...maybe it was just that we stayed together for so long i started to develop true real feelings and they were so strong that when we broke up it really crushed me....................yea lets go with that..

any more questions??

so do you think im being shallow or..selfish or...just plain stupid?! i cant understand why i cant let it go bye! everytime i think of him or chelsea i feel like choking up and crying because i could have done SO Much more.. i could have been so much better

but instead i was being an absolutely horrible girlfriend, because i gave him his space..or i didn't call as much

it was only because i didn't think he wanted me to!!

Well if he didn't want you to then why would he ask you out?

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okay i just officially made myself feel even worse..

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