delusional

Here I am lying on this musty green bed. In this horrible institution. I hear the girl next door to me screaming while there trying to jam the shot into her. I close my ears so I don't have to hear the high pitch agony of her screaming. I bet your wondering why I'm in this institution. I killed my mom and my dad. But that's not how it happened. Nobody knows what happened that day.

It still plays fresh in my mind as I toss around in bed at night. I think how that pool of red surrounded around the bodies. How Elizabeth is rest in peace six feet down in the dirt. She was there when it happened they don't know her like I did. But they will never find out the truth. Because I am mute I am silence. All I have is my mind which is the darkest place. Because of that night.

Monday 6:00 AM

The security guard marches through and tells me it's time for breakfast. He handcuffs my hands together. I tell him to ease up and he pretends he didn't hear. As were walking down the halls I'm looking in all the rooms at the same people. As I'm walking through this musty hall way I'm thinking to myself "I don't belong here". But I stay silent.

When I reach the cafeteria the lunch lady slams potatoes on my tray. When I sit down a girl about 5'9, medium length brown hair and green eyes sits next to me. Which is weird since I'm are a mass murderer and all. She turns to me and stares down at me. I shoot her a look then my eyes get wide it's Elizabeth. But I thought she died so I thought.

She comes closer and says "missed me".

In my head I'm thinking I'm delusional. But then she says "oh come on Sammy don't you remember me".

Racing thoughts went through my head I'm thinking she can't be here because she's dead or at least that's what I thought.

Then she says “They caught me because they knew I was there". Before she can reminance back to the past the security guard escorts me to my room. I sat on my musty bed saying to myself she can't be alive. Even if she is she still hasn't change deep in my gut I could feel it.

Tuesday 6:00 AM

The next morning I said to myself Elizabeth is dead she’s not alive. When I stood up getting ready to go use the rest room there was Elizabeth. She smiles a grim smile and goes “ hey Sammy we didn’t finish our talk”. I sat down on my bed and she says “why did you do it Sammy all that pain you caused”. I still didn’t talk although I wanted to scream “it’s your fault you made me”. Elizabeth was the only one who knew the truth. When I snap back to reality she’s breathing in my face and she says “answer me now”! She goes “why are you quiet you know you can’t escape the truth”. She smiles then she says “oh I see no one knows what you did to Jake”. She goes” you’re a psycho Sammy and everyone knows it except you”.

Then she starts throwing words at me like calling me a monster. The word monster came peculiar to me because I'm not a monster or am I. That’s when I started getting angry then she says that’s the face I remember. She says I know how you lied to the police about your abuse. She says still don’t want to talk huh. Before I can get near her the security guard walks in I wrote on a piece of paper tell her to leave. The security guard looks at me like I have two heads and says who? I wrote she’s right there you can’t see her. Now Elizabeth was smiling. The security guard says maybe you need more rest.

I really wanted to scream “no”. But before I can protest she’s gone. Now I'm laying on my bed saying to myself she’s there I'm not crazy. Then Elizabeth said “Sammy don’t you remember that night”. I look at her and shook my head yes. Now I’m scooting away from her glare. I shake my head because I didn’t kill Jake. She knew that she knew I would never kill Jake. She is just messing with me or is she. Did I kill Jake to or is she just playing mind games.

Before she can say anymore the girl next door comes in. her name is Alexis, she’s only 15 years old, and she’s the one who’s always trying to kill her every two weeks. That’s why the jam the shots into her. She likes to come to my room and talk to me about her problems. That’s when I told Elizabeth that she had to go. Then Alexis goes “who are you talking to”. Then I said she’s right there” you can’t see her”. She shakes her head no .My head starts to spin because all these thoughts run through my mind. Then Alexis goes “maybe I should go gee I thought I was the crazy one”.

Chapter 2 the face in the mirror

As I looked in the mirror. With my pale complexion, my big brown eyes. Then I saw Elizabeth. I started to rub my eyes again and again. The feeling is coming back. Before I can examine the face in the mirror they call me on the intercom saying that someone wants to visit me. When I stepped in to the room it was my auntie. His hair pulled in to a bun, with huge bags under her eyes, her eyes are brown but there blood shot red. She looks up from her papers. She really wanted to hug me but she couldn’t. Her lips curled as she examine me then she says your leaving next Monday. They think you’re innocent. My heart fluttered as the words floated in the air. She shakes her head I smiled.

After I signed all my papers I stepped outside in the cool fresh air. I haven’t felt this air in 3 years. The grass couldn’t look greener. I breathed in and out. My auntie Cady touched my shoulder and says “it feels good to be out huh”. I'm fourteen years old now. I know what you’re thinking you were eleven when you went to the institution. Well yeah. When I stepped in to Cady’s Mercedes the press started surrounding the car.
I wish I could get a hold of each and every one of them. On the way to Cadys house she tells me about school and how I need to stay out of trouble. As I stepped out I looked around and there was jasmine. When she saw me she ran back inside her house. I was flabbergasted but I shrugged it off. Elizabeth was standing next to me she smiles and says “you don’t need her we have work to do anyway”.
As I layer in my big purple bed that night I wasn’t able to sleep. It feels so good to sleep without hearing people screaming all night. But this same dream kept happening that I could not break through.
The dream

I was walking through my old house before I went to the institution. My mom and dad were arguing this what they were saying. Mom: she needs help Jim who is Elizabeth
Dad: it’s just her imaginary friend
Mom: no but you don’t see her she talks to herself she’s not my little girl no more


Dad: that’s what imaginary friends are for
Mom: what could she need a knife for then
My mom throws the knife on the ground that’s the one Elizabeth brought to my room. When I saw how there was a symbol on the knife I froze because it had a skull on it.

Dream done

I woke up with sweat pouring down my face. I’m breathing heavily my eyes are wider than ever. I started running my hands through my hair I couldn’t take it. Elizabeth sat right next to me. She goes “bad dream”. I ignore her comment I wish she would get out of my head. Now I'm looking at the picture of my mom. I felt liquid coming out of my eyes. It tasted salty is this what crying felt like. I never cried before because Elizabeth told me it was for babies. I wiped my tears annoyingly and lied back down. I couldn’t close my eyes because of the red images that were on my hands. What is that dripping from the ceiling holy crap that’s blood? I'm running and running but it’s still pouring down. My mom is screaming the gun shots are booming through my ears. It felt like my ears were bleeding. Now I'm on the ground screaming in agony for the pain to stop. I woke up from my dream. I must have fallen asleep again. Every time she looked at her hands she saw blood. She couldn’t stop. It was haunting her eating her alive. But what is she to do.

Auntie Cady’s point of view

I was thinking about what I am going to do with Samantha. I just don’t know if she killed my sister. But her father needed help. Maybe they have the same problem. I just don’t know. Before her aunt could think any more she heard a thump in the kitchen down stairs. She thought it was Samantha getting something to eat. But before she went down stairs she checked in Samantha’s bedroom and she was sitting up in a deep trance.

As she stepped closer to the room the hallway floor started to squeak. Then Samantha shot her eyes to her auntie. He auntie came and sat right next to her. She places her hand on her shoulder. They didn’t speak. Cady knew she wasn’t going to talk to her so she stepped out and went back to her room. She lied back down and closed her eyes.

The dream

She was reading until she felt the need to get something to drink. But when she stepped out there was Samantha pointing a gun at her. Then a girl about 5'9, medium length brown hair and green eyes was whispering in her ear and smiling grimly. I go Samantha what are you doing. She looked scared then I point to the girl next to her. Who is that? She goes this is Elizabeth auntie. Then Elizabeth goes shoot her now. Bang…… she was on the ground. Then Samantha came to her ear and said have a great time.

Dream done

Cady wakes up and her heart is pounding. She’s looking around and now tears are coming out of her eyes.