My little beauty,
I'm so sorry. You know this all was an accident. Mommy was just so mad! I've told you so many times that I'm sick and tired of cleaning up after you night after night. Do you think the other little girls in the pageants act like that? I doubt it! Because pretty little girls don't do things like that! But baby, no matter how many stupid things you did, I still shouldn't have reacted like that. You know how mad you make me though. I just wish that for once you could have acted right. I was already so stressed, trying to getting everyone ready for the plane ride to Charlevoix. You and your brother never have things ready like I tell you! And of course your father had more important things to do than help me pack. I was just tired, and then you had to come crying about pissing in your bed, again. I don't know where you got such a nasty habit, certainly not from my side of the family. We have more control than that! It's disgusting and embarassing! But sweetheart, I know that you are with the Lord now, and what a wonderful place that must be. I'm sure you're the most beautiful angel up there. I just pray that the Lord will forgive me. I know that what I've done is wrong. But we will all get past this. I've gone to a lot of trouble to make sure that this family isn't destroyed by one mistake. Your father and I have too high of a reputation to uphold, to have to deal with accusations. I know that our friends will stick by us, and the town as well. We are pillars of the community. So far, everyone has been caring and wonderful. Everyone is so involved in looking for your "killer." Sometimes I feel bad about that, but there's nothing I can do. I cant let them know the truth. Every time I turn on the television, I see your beautiful face looking back at me. Every channel has your pictures. My beautiful little girl is like a star. You always did so great in the pageants (thanks to me and all the hard work I put in) but no matter how many we entered, you would have never gotten the fame like this. Everyone knows your name. Darling, I wish that you were here to see all this. Once again, my angel, I'm so sorry this had to happen. If you had only learned. I love you.
Watch over us,