CONFESSION IN DETENTION [ C.I.D]
Hello my Queen,This is my words to you for the first time on sheets,hope it reaches your heart.
My Queen; through it all ,I've come to realise that i don't deserve you nor your love.
after some time of tears,I discovered i'm not worthy of love, for it came
right before me and i blew it. call me silly, stupid, foolish for that is what IAM.
My Queen; though in disarray, i stiil fight back to see how i could get back into your
arms again.see that i go through pains right now but do not pity me for i
reap the aftermath of my stupidity and ignorance.
My Queen; i can't reachout to you now, my guilt is killing me. though she got some
of my time but not the best of it, a little of my heart but not all of it.
My Queen; my last outing was bad, so i got so scared of getting committed again. pls
do not even think i rejected you, on the contrary i gave my heart relunctantly.
My Queen; i donot intend to defend myself, for i don't have the perfect words to make up
or reverse my wrongs.
My Queen; i long for your compassionate heart and love, i guess is just too much to ask now,
may be till i find my way back in your arms again.
My Queen; i'm not saying it is inappropriate to get angry but let it not linger, loosen up a bit
and look towards me again.
My Queen; this words are not meant to tickle or tease you rather to seize every grudge. of a
truth, i only write when i bleed,i feel so remorsed for all i did.
My Queen; i don't seem to connect right now. for all i wish myself, i wish to you as well. i pray
that you prosper and be in good health and soul be flooded with light.
In as much as my heart bleeds, so great is my love towards you.
I Miss you ma !
p.s- I need you to survive.