To my loving
I tried to be the best
mother and person I could. You two are my world. I know you
think you need me but I think you are going to be okay. Know my
presence. Please remember the great things we did together and
not the end. I am at peace now. Know your dad is full of love
and he can give you more than you could ask for in a lifetime.
If you keep an open heart, you will receive all the love you
need in life. My family will always be there for you. Stay
close to them they will be solid and strong as you experience
the rest of your life. You have so many amazing things to
encounter in your lifetime. My wish for both of you is to love
cautiously and give of yourself the same way.
When you think you found a
person to share your life with, step back and examine all of it.
Don't settle in your lust or neediness for something unknown.
It's not worth your life. Look around, study. Who makes it and
who doesn't. Listen to your heart from the beginning and trust
your intuitive mind. God gave you this sense for a reason. To
help you and guide you. Your initial gut cannot be wrong. Note
what is present for you. Trust your internal knowing before it is
too late. Trust your internal knowing, don't question it. If you
do, you will realize it is too late. Your life will pass you and
you won't understand. That's not a good place to be. Trust in you
and the Lord. Find your Buddha within. Those are the tools that
can guide you home. Please listen to me. You may think these
things killed me. They did not. I discovered them too late. I am
alive for the first time in my life. There is peace here. I am
home. I have learned that you don't have to endure suffering.
Notice it and find love regardless.
I am in a better place to
love you now. You only think you need my physical body to have
love...that's not true either. I learned more about love in the
last twenty four hours. Now I am with you unconditionally and not
affected by the world. I can see you from up here. I will help
your intuition. I can be so much more. Please open your pained
heart with love and know I am here and will always be here for
I love you with all my heart
which is so full of love now. Don't be scared when you face
what's in front of you. When you are ready to come home, I will
be here with open arms of love.
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