Dear Journal Entry,
It is 2012 and I have not typed in my journal in a long time! Of course I've been hand-writing in my journal, but I just haven't been typing anything lately. As I have anticipated 2012 to be a year of becoming debt-free, I am now beginning to realize what an incredible difficult goal that is to reach, especially when I'm only working 25 hours a week. Ugh! It's like things start to look up, but only for a short time and things start going down again. Honestly, I'm so tired of this bull shit (excuse my language) of this endless cycle of not making enough money financially. When is my financial breakthrough going to happen for me?
I start last year working at Bradley Hospital thinking that this is my "big break," started me out part-time thinking it would become full-time after about a year to find out it's already been a year and the job is not going any where for me. Living on 25 hours a week for a year just isn't cutting it for me anymore. So. Another opportunity arose to where I can go back to work with my father in the construction field and work full-time and make some pretty descent money. I'm going to quit Bradley Hospital in two days, one of the most difficult things I've ever had to do in my life because I enjoy working there so much. But, you go where the money is... we don't work for free. Now, this I believe will be my financial breakthrough that I've been looking for in my life for at least 5 years!
Even through my frustrations, God is my strong tower. God has been my constant thread through all my struggles that I've been faced with. In my lowest times, God has been my high point. I don't know where I would be if I didn't rely totally on God. I say all of this, because life happens, we struggle and want that breakthrough in our lives and it seems so far off, but when you keep pushing through, soon you will get to the end of the tunnel with God standing by your side. Even though I don't feel like I'm through the other side yet, I know that I am walking closer to it, and I'm near the end.
Does all of this make any sense? Or am I just venting to an unknown world? Life happens. How will you make light of it?