chlostrophobia

you know the feeling

colostriphobia, walls closing in around you

except now is diffrent

now your alone

people all within reach

yet none repsond to your touch

gasping for air and grasping at nothing

you try to anchor yourself on reality

you know when your in that elevator 

and you cant breath

your head start spinning and your lungs feel heavy

feeling that now sitting in your dark room

throats dried out from screams of "see me!"

that were never voiced

 your silenced by the encompasing 

overwhelming feeling of being alone 

when your in that closed space

and you feel like fear is eating you from the inside

and you ready to cry, cut, anything to let it out

you know how it feels

to know people

to call them friends

and to not have one of them be there

when you need them

when you enter your panic attack

and everything dims and logic fails

and you just want to die

its hot and constricting and painfull 

the best part is

your trapt, unable to move

and no one cares