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Will someone take a chance on me?

Poetry By: TheManWithManyWalls

Tags: Me

I know I bad, but will someone take a chance on me?

Submitted:Sep 18, 2009    Reads: 191    Comments: 7    Likes: 0   

My feelings are stronger than I am

I can't ever stay the same

I'm as stable as dynamite stick

I can't lose hold of a hopeless love

I know the answer and still hold on

My future is muddled

My ambitions are dark

I can't even please myself

I never been a good friend

I never was there when people needed me

I am scared of accepting the truth

the truth that I'll be alone the rest of my life

The truth that there might not be a God

That maybe this life is it

That maybe it's hopeless

That no matter what I do I'll die

I'll die alone

No one will miss me

No one will care

All I have is my work

I have my imagination, I have my stories

I have my Crazy Muffin

I love her very much

I have loved her as long as I can remember

Even before I knew her

But I love someone else too

Someone who will never love me back

I love fairiegirl as a friend

As a best friend, the best friend I always wanted

The type of friend I can depend on

The type of friend I know will always be my friend

But then I look at myself

And realize I don't deserve any of it

I don't deserve love

I don't deserve happiness

I am cold inside

I am dead, I died years ago

Is this hell?

I found love in hell

I didn't deserve it but I found it

I found a friend

didn't deserve her but there she is

I still don't deserve them

They took a chance on me

Like playing with fire

Like lighting a dynamite stick and holding on to it

Trusting it won't go off

I keep on saying I hate Kale

In truth I hate myself in Kale

I will never hurt you my dearest Crazy Muffin

I will never hurt you Fairiegirl

I only need to hurt myself

Maybe that's enough

To see you smile

Maybe that's the price I need to pay

The price I pay willingly

For you to take a chance on me


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