It was a long 4 months with out Star.
Without an answer, I became somewhat fragile and sickly but tried
to get some class, but I was a colt at heart, a love struck
yearling. I didn't know much about love, I had only loved one
other mare, my mother and in a different way than Star.
Sunset had more experience but, the
good guys always get the girl, so I just stood in the pond for a
while knowing, that Sunset was the good guy.
I knew from the beginning I had little
to no chance, but I started to hope. That's why I won't make that
mistake again. Hopes only turns to crushed dreams, just live life
at the moment, don't look forward or back. It's about right here,
I fell asleep; I started thinking
about Star, Razz, and Sunset. I thought about the people, and my
old herd. If I could have cried I would have. I wanted my mom,
then it hit me, I had to escape, for my own hearts sake.
I started to dream about the foal
running around Star, with Sunset, at least she would be happy.
Razz, I might take her with me, but the only problem was her
owner, he didn't want to hurt either of us.
I decided to run that night, try to
escape, stay clear of Star and Razz. I might be able to see my
I saw Star and just galloped away. If
I tried to say goodbye, it could be painful, painful enough to
hurt the foal, Star, and myself. I galloped on.
As I reached my old herd, I realized
there were only 2 mares, and they had been taken over by another
Stallion. The stallion had killed the rest, and my mother was
among the dead ones. I, heartbroken, galloped back and waited
outside the ranch, hoping to die.
The people took me inside and put me
into the pasture, and I just kept out of site and went to where I
had lain. I lay there once more. I heard something in the
distance, Razz? Star? I wanted to cry out, but just lied
I just lay there. I wondered about
Star's foal. I couldn't bear to see it, as I knew that when I
did, I would realize I wasn't a colt. I had lost, and I had known
where to turn. That it wasn't just a bad dream.
I soon went to my favorite spot, under
the pine trees covered with branches. It was hidden, but I knew
that when Razz saw I wasn't there she would know something was
up, but I didn't care what she thought.
I needed someone to help me recover
from my terrible fate. I was hidden away; Razz could find me
eventually, if she wanted to anyway.
I let out an ear piercing whinny, then
laid back down. Finally Razz found me, I followed her to Star's
foal, but once I saw the foal, I just stood there for a while,
and then I turned and went back to my hidden spot.
I just didn't know what to do. I
wasn't ever going to be able to have one of my own, so I feared I
might try to take Sunset's place, but I knew it was wrong, I
would see the foal when I was ready.
Star followed me back told me that she
made a bad mistake.
"No, I was the one who made the
mistake, I left my herd, and I left you. I'm just not loyal
enough for you. I shouldn't have even tried. It hurts; I have no
herd any more. These people took me away from everything I knew,
and made me love something else, and then I betrayed it. How
could anyone as beautiful as you, care about someone like me?" I
"Well you may not have class but I now
know that you care about me more than anything in the world and
you would risk your live to save mine" Star says
"Your all I have left, how could I not
try to save you? You're the only thing that is worth living for."
"Well, I just want to say that, I
should have not chose Sunset to be the lead stallion, I should
have chosen, chosen you." Star says.
I just could believe it. I thought he
could never have a mare. I almost fell over, was it to much for
me to handle? I was shocked. I still couldn't believe I won Star
I knew Razz liked me, she would be
heart broken, but unfortunately, and I could only have one mare.
There would always be someone hurt on the inside, I couldn't
change that, but how I wanted to.
I realizing my responsibility, decided
to go see if anyone was coming, several humans were, I recognized
one, not from this place, but where I was before I was
He was a bad man. He sold horses to
slaughter for no more than a penny; horses that were with him
were starved and worked to death. I had to keep him from my
Star looked up and saw the men too;
they where in her friends stall looking at her. I saw a check in
the man's hand; someone had been sold to him. I worried for
Sunset, Sunny, Razz and the foal. Star was to amazing to be sold
to him. She was the master's pride and joy. Finally the man left,
he would be back, but at least for know my herd was safe.
"What have I done wrong?" I said as I
was being loaded into the trailer, I fought, trying to get to
Star, to make a promise, a promise to always return, and how we
will meet again.
I was taken on a long journey. When we
finally stopped, it was not to let me out, but for those selfish
humans to eat. I waited and waited, and finally, what seemed like
hours, they came back. They got in the truck and we were off,
The next time we stopped, they opened
the door. The sun was so bright! I was blinded. One man came next
to me and led me out; three other horses were led out too. I
think I recognized one of them but I was not sure. Then I got, it
was one of the horses from my mother old herd, she had a foal
with her. What man would buy a mare with a foal I thought?
I was led into a stall, a very, very,
very small stall. I could barley turn around it. There in the
dark corner filled with cobwebs was some water, very little
water, and I knew he would not refill it. I turned around and
looked in the other dark corner, hay. Dusty, old, dry hay!
I was so hungry I bent down and
picked up a couple of pieces of hay. It crumbled in my mouth, so
I spat it out. I walked over to the water and stuck my nose in,
spider webs got all over my mouth and nostrils, but I lapped at
the water, it tasted like dust.
I walked to the door and let out a
whinny, I hated being here, I wanted to be with Star and Razz and
Sunset. I knew Star missed me, I missed her too, but I guess that
was the way it was suppose to be.
I was lead out of my stall by a very
nice man, or what I thought was a nice man. He put a saddle and
bridle on me. Then he led me up to some type of block that he
stood on. He put his foot in the stirrup and swung his leg over
He was so heavy, I bucked him off.
Then, I thought, I could run away! I could just run away and see
Star and Razz and Sunset again! I started to back away, I was
going to run. But before I could run he grabbed my reins and
pulled me toward him.
I walked up to him, feeling sorry for
myself and him. He turned me around and started to walk up to the
block again, I walked with him. He put his foot in the stirrup
and swung his leg over. This time I did not buck, I did not want
to get hurt.
He walked me out into the area. There
were other horses in there too, so I did not want to spook them
by bucking him off.
He squeezed me sides, from previous
training I knew this meant to go in to a trot or jog. I picked up
a steady jog, and around and around the arena we went, at a
Then he squeezed my sides harder, I
started to trot fast and faster. He reached back and smacked me
with a stick. I bucked a little and then cantered, around the
I looked inside, and there were horses
jumping. He made me go in a circle and I then I saw it, a jump,
well a cross-rail.
I knew I was suppose to jump it, but
it was so scary. He squeezed my sides more, and kicked me. In
front of the jump I stopped, put my head down, and snorted at
Then he fell on my neck! I swung my
head up and he went fly behind me. When he hit the ground, he
made a big thump sound. It was so scary, the only way to get away
from it, was to jump over the jump.
I picked up my front legs and kicked
with my back legs so I would clear it. I went flying over it, and
galloped out. People all around me were waving their hands and
yelling. I was so scarred; right then and there I wanted my old
home, my mother, Star, Razz, and even Sunset.
I heard a whinny, it sounded like
Star's whinny. I lifted my head to see if I can hear it again. I
kept looking everywhere, but I guess it was only my
I looked down and saw a human running
toward me. I bolted toward the gate, the gate was open! Ha! I
thought who would leave a gate open, I thought as I galloped out
of it toward the drive way gate.
I was going to run, I was destined to,
and I wanted, no needed Star and Razz with me. I wonder how happy
Star and Razz will be when they see me, I thought.
As I came out of my daydream, I saw
that the gate to my freedom was closed. It was only about knee
high and I knew I could jump that, at least for my
As I came up to it, I picked up my
front feet. One second later my front feet cleared it, now for my
back feet. I kicked them up high, so I won't hit the gate. When I
got to the other side, I realized I made it! I made it to my
freedom, and no one can stop me!
Then I felt something grab my reins.
No! I have to be free I thought, I have to get to Star and tell
her everything is alright. He unlatched the gate and lead me back
in. He took off bridled and put my halter on. Then he took off my
saddle and led me to the wash rack.
He turned on the water once he tied
me, and hosed me down. The water felt so good on my sweaty back.
He ran his hands down my legs and put ice on them. Then he put a
blanket on my back and led me to my stall.
It was more than a month since I was
taken from Star. My eyes lost their shine, my coat turned into a
rag, and my tail, my tail lost it shine and was down most of the
time. I kept thinking about Star, was she alright? Will I ever
get to see her again?
The next day I was put in a pen with 4
other horses looking like they were all dirt and mud. At least my
man took care of my and groomed and bathed me everyday, I
Then I was taken away from the horses
and put into a bigger area. I ran around like a lost scarred
colt. Then I heard someone shout at me. I looked up and I was
him! He was my other owner!
I ran toward the stand that he was
standing on. I looked up at him and met his eyes. I saw the
sadness in his eyes. I think he saw the sadness in my eyes too,
because he turned his head away. Then about a second later he
turned his head again to face me.
About a minute after that, I was lead
out of the arena and put into a corral. Then at the end of the
day, no one came to pick me up like some other horses got to. I
wanted to home and see Star and Razz and Sunny and the colt. I
was homesick and I was not afraid to say it.
The horses that weren't sold at the
action got put back into their stalls, including me. I fell
asleep thinking about Star.
I was woken up by smoke in my nose.
Then I heard banging and shouting. I walked over to my stall door
and stuck my head over it. I could barely see, but I could make
out some people opening the stall doors of horses. Since I was
the last one in my row, I whinnied hoping they heard me. A man
came to my stall door and opened it up.
He ran away and the door flung open.
Starring me right in the face was my freedom, and I took the
chance. I galloped out of the door and up the driveway. I jumped
over the gate, that they were opening, and I ran as fast as I
Everything went so fast, but I
galloped on. I galloped past the blaze and smoke. I ran like I
was running for my life, and I was. I ran past other horses, they
looked like they were forgotten, but I just galloped on. I did
care about them, but I wanted to get home.
I ran on for 3 days, stopping to only
drink and eat. When I finally stopped, I was lost. I did not
know where I was. I turned around and around trying to find
something that reminded me of home.
I took a deep breath and I smelt salt.
I was near a sea! I remember that my home was near a sea! I
galloped toward the smell, and stopped just above a cliff. I
looked out and there it was the blue, salty sea. I walked down
the cliff and into the shore. If I just would follow this down,
maybe I could find my home.
I started on going south. I walked on
the shore, water soaking my hooves. I walked up a cliff to see
where I was.