The ache in my stomach that never fades away. The deep cough that gets worse more i think about it. People that mention the experience that most of them will never feel the sting. That feeling will never go away, the feeling of warm tears down your cold face. The feeling of sadness that is my day and night my sunset and sunrise the feeling that never goes away. But unlike happiness hurts while your in the middle of it. It hurts to feel it hurts to see it in some one's eyes. Hurts. All you can describe it as all you can remember it as the thing that made you feel so bad that you want nothing that bad to happen to yourself again. The feeling that stings, hurts, and dissagrees even when you want to be happy it's there hiding in a corner ready to pounce and i just let it break through my gates and control me. I let the sadness take over and control everything. And i don't know why!
The Stairs of Dissapointment
I am alone in this world, so are you, so is every one else. No one will feel pain exactly like you do. They might see it a bit easier then other people but they don't really get you. Relatives have the illusion that they understand you. You climb up stairs you stumble a bit, but you get used to it. You start to think any where you step, you won't fall. You will though,