Hokay, so I've been thinking about this for a while, and I thought I would do this...

I just wanted to create this little shoutout type thing to thank the people that I have met on here who I have befriended. Two weeks ago from today (Aug 22), I was... not good to say the least. No need for details, but I wanted to take this time to thank those who have helped me especially :) And also those who have just been wonderful friends.

THANK YOU TO... *inserts drumroll*

Jadey! She's my big sis on booksie and she's helped me through SO much. She always knows what to say to make me feel better and she's very wise :P But stepping aside from helping me, she's just an incredible friend because she makes me laugh whether I'm happy or sad. She is definately like a sister to me and I can't express how grateful I am to have met her :)

DarkFairy! Though busy sometimes, when we do find time to talk, she's always there to listen and offer me advice and just help me come to an understanding. She's such a great friend and I couldn't imagine not having her in my life after everything!! Thank you so much ^^

Mandymoo! Hahahaha! Also known as NocturnalMuse. Lord, this girl listens to me talk and cry and be a wreck. Hehe, love you Mandymoo! :D She makes me smile and she's always willing to listen and just be there for me when I need her. She's incredible. Mooooo!

Chicka19! Ha, she has listened to me vent numerous times ^^ She also puts up with my reminiscing. She's my little sister on booksie :) And I'm so glad I have someone as charming and wonderful as her to confide in!

Katie! aka Air. She offered a helping hand when I was on my knees in the thunderstorm, crying out. She sent me some energy and bright happy colors. She listened to me think outloud and sort my thoughts and feelings, trying to clear my head, and offered her own words of wisdom and comfort. It really helped me get a grip on things. Thank you Katie!

Zoe! She was there for me as well :) Wonderful, fun, loving Zoe. Though I didn't vent as much to her, she offered an ear, and it helped! She's also just a fantastic friend when I'm not upset. We have so many fun conversations and laugh so much together!

Urja! She has definately provided some insight, helped me see things, and clear my mind as best as I could. Her words helped, and she saw a strength in me and through my words, despite the fact that I was struggling. She cared, but didn't worry too much about me because of this strength she saw in me. And that made me feel a bit stronger :) Thank you so much Urja! ^^

Then there were people who expressed concern, and I appreciate everyone's concern... it made me realize how much people care about me here... like... I never knew you guys cared that much. All of you truly are wonderful: Angela, Stephanee, CheekySally (Nora), Nonna (Susan), Pratibha, and others.

And now I know this may seem a bit ironic to others for adding this last person here if you are aware of my life... but really, there is no irony. This person deserves every word and so much more:

Alex.

Yes, I was hurt. Yes, I cried endlessy. Yes, I sobbed my heart out. Yes, I was miserable. BUT I learned a lot... still have much more to learn as I continue my journey through life, but I have learned a lot from this. Before all of this - I learned to love. I learned romance. I was given life again. We created an amazing friendship and it became something so beautiful. There's not a minute I'll ever forget. Staying up till 4 or 5 in the morning and risking eye bags was worth it. Time passed and I was insecure and feeling vulnerable. I had never really been exposed to that insecurity. Vulnerability - yes, to a certain extent. But...looking back, I'm glad I even experienced that. It made me look at things through a different perspective... and then you left for some time... and I realized that it wasn't the romance that I missed so much -though I do miss it, but only to a small degree - it was talking to you just in a friend-to-friend way like we used to that I missed. Not talking to you made it feel like the friendship was gone...like you were gone. And I discovered that nothing else mattered except the friendship. Everything was stripped to the core, and I got to the heart and what it was that I really needed - the friendship. It was a huge realization because a few weeks ago from then, I thought I would be so upset if the romance ever stopped. It opened my eyes...and within these past weeks, I have learned so much more than I have ever about myself, about friendship, about love, about everything! I just... I've done a lot of thinking. Some good thoughts, some bad thoughts, but all of which contributed to my realizations, allowing me to grow and become stronger. And for that, I thank you. Thank you for everything - the smiles, the laughs, the memories, the pain, the ache, the tears. And now we've placed a fresh slate before us, our own tabula rasa, and we can draw on it again, make new memories, and always, always have a strong friendship- whether we ever be anything more again, who knows - but having what we had at least once is better than not having it at all :) Mahal kita.

Merci ^^