So for those of you who dont know my real name its Victoria but I go by Tori... here are my confessions.
Let me set up my "charictor", me. I am 12 years old, im a monster, I have black hair, brown eyes, nothing special. I am insicure. I know who I am, who im not, and who you would like me to be. And I also know that I will proboly not meet your expecations... I cant even meet my own. I am emo, I struggle with depression... I cut. yeah, and im not proud.
Thats me, here are my secrets.
My father was abusive. Not to me, but my mom. I sometimes wish it was me, so he atleased gave me something. I seeked out sex as a young child. A 12 year old boy took advantage of that for the longest time... I cant say how long. Now im scarred. I was introduced to cutting at the age of 8, weed at age 10, beer last year and cigaretts too. I didnt know better. Im not an adict, if anything cutting is my drug. I used to be anorexic... to the point of hospitalization. My best friend and ex boyfriend were suicidal and keeping them both alive drained me. Then I almost died when I found out they both betrayed me by sleeping with eachother. fee-uw... am I a downer or what?
Then this year I got drunk with my friends boyfriend and he took advantage of me. I cheeted on my bf that way. then my step dad came home, ran him off and yelled at me. I was drunk, didnt know what to do, so I ran into the kitchen, got a knife and cut. He sent me to the hospital. Now im i a state of great depression..................
BUT YA KNOW WHAT? Im slowly getting better. Im not going to post this for pity (I hate pity) or for your judgement ( I get enough of that). comment if you want, but I would greatly appreciate it if you wouldnt give me shit. please and thanks.