I can’t say for sure if she was the reason I left my girlfriend, but after looking into her eyes I knew I had to leave Calli, I had to leave before I hurt her in a way I wouldn’t be able to handle.
I had never met this Maddie before, but from the moment I saw her I was mesmerized. I can’t say I love her, but the connection that I feel is stronger than I have felt with anybody.
Grey eyes, like a strong fog, they hold so much, so much I want to know. Looking into them I felt like I was in a place so familiar. I knew in that moment that I loved Calli, but Maddie made my heart beat twice as fast with just one look.
She wasn’t even my “type”, but I guess my feelings decided otherwise. I know Maddie doesn’t feel the same way I feel about her-I see the way she looks at me-she is my friend, no more, no less. Though, I knew this from the first hello, I knew I had to leave Calli; I knew that if I didn’t leave I would hurt her even more by not being able to love her unconditionally without thinking about Maddie.
Who knows, maybe I am just a girl in lust with another girl. Maybe there is something there that will never be. Maybe she is a tease, and I am taking the bait.
All I know is her smile gives me the feeling of dancing in the rain, her scent leaves me laying staring up at the stars, her touch freezes me in time, and her eyes, those eyes, knock the breath out of my lungs.
Knowing that she is not interested, yes, it hurts, but I would rather have the air punched out of my lungs every day, than one day never being able to see her again.