With the economy it
became apparent that because I have testicles I must supply the
Stupid in this day
and age means something done different than what one originally
When your like
everyone else you don't get along with everyone.
I'm beginning to
believe every male who knows my dad is dead must be my daddy
figure and in one way or another go fishing with me.
I thought about
having a ceremonial burning of my journals and other weird
writings but maybe by chance my writings will reach out to some
young youth and maybe they can know that the world is really nuts
and say WTF lets do this.
It is the perfect
penmanship and It don't matter. I am the chooser of what I want
to do And I know What is right and wrong. I don't have to fucking
please you because I know what I want and I know that it matters
or doesn't matter Its not that complicated when it is black and
white black and white represents the past.
Hey, your problems
aren't mine to fix, You fix them!
There is still a
spiritual connection within me that wants to overcome the sin
Go to church naked
and refuse to get a job the world will make you it's bitch.
Somehow freaking out
in a journal is not as satisfying as truly freaking out.
I tell you if you
give a kid a hunting trip, a car, a job, a four wheeler, a boat,
and dog the thing the kid is generally most pleased with in order
is the dog, the four wheeler, the hunting trip, the boat, the
car, and the job. However the order of the grown up is just the
I have difficulties
even convincing myself I'm morally right.
I am eighteen and
have the right to view porn.
I don't have the
emotional energy to deal with this bitchiness.
I always thought we
grew into the adults we loved respected and thought were wise.
If you trust your
god so frivolously than why are you concerned about me?
God and I have a
mutual understanding for each other as compared to a religion I'm
This was the
everyday thinking from May 27 2008 until July 11th 2009 when it
became important again to face the homosexuality factor.