With the economy it became apparent that because I have testicles I must supply the deer.
Stupid in this day and age means something done different than what one originally accepts.
When your like everyone else you don't get along with everyone.
I'm beginning to believe every male who knows my dad is dead must be my daddy figure and in one way or another go fishing with me.
I thought about having a ceremonial burning of my journals and other weird writings but maybe by chance my writings will reach out to some young youth and maybe they can know that the world is really nuts and say WTF lets do this.
It is the perfect penmanship and It don't matter. I am the chooser of what I want to do And I know What is right and wrong. I don't have to fucking please you because I know what I want and I know that it matters or doesn't matter Its not that complicated when it is black and white black and white represents the past.
Hey, your problems aren't mine to fix, You fix them!
There is still a spiritual connection within me that wants to overcome the sin within me.
Go to church naked and refuse to get a job the world will make you it's bitch.
Somehow freaking out in a journal is not as satisfying as truly freaking out.
I tell you if you give a kid a hunting trip, a car, a job, a four wheeler, a boat, and dog the thing the kid is generally most pleased with in order is the dog, the four wheeler, the hunting trip, the boat, the car, and the job. However the order of the grown up is just the opposite.
I have difficulties even convincing myself I'm morally right.
I am eighteen and have the right to view porn.
I don't have the emotional energy to deal with this bitchiness.
I always thought we grew into the adults we loved respected and thought were wise.
If you trust your god so frivolously than why are you concerned about me?
God and I have a mutual understanding for each other as compared to a religion I'm bound by.
This was the everyday thinking from May 27 2008 until July 11th 2009 when it became important again to face the homosexuality factor.