I feel like I have reached the point in my life when I am suddenly aware.
I'm suddenly aware that my pathetic life, in perspective, means nothing.
I know this sounds depressing, but hear me out. I have a point.
When you think long and hard about it, we are a tiny fraction of a speck on the grand scale of the entire universe, and our universe is probably just a tiny speck on an even grander scale, and don't even get me started on parallel universes.
My point is, I don't want to spend the rest of my life doing something depressing or something I would regret in the future, like the majority of humans wasting their lives on this planet.
I want to be one of those rare individuals who really make a difference, or even end up following their dreams.
But first of all, What is a Dream?
To me, a dream is what you imagine when you fall asleep, not what your goals are. It's how you imagine yourself, your alter ego(atleast, that is what my dreams are about).
As a fifteen year old teenage girl, my alter ego is sheer perfection. Perhaps that's because I don't see myself as perfect, so my subconscious is secretly telling me how to be "perfect" as subtlety as it can. Not physically, but mentally.
My dreams are like stories. Each one as exciting and adventurous as the last. And the main character is always the same. It's me, but in a way it's not me at all. Physically, this girl in my dreams looks nothing like me, but she makes all the decisions, all the hard choices exactly how I would. So although at a first glance this protagonist of my dreams doesn't look like me, I can just tell it is meant to be me.
So maybe, instead of ignoring these dreams and dismissing them as unrealistic fantasies, we should try to be more like these characters.
I believe, and I could be wrong, that our dreams are what we do right. Our dreams are not meant to be ignored, but are meant to be listened to. They yearn attention.
When you have a nightmare, what is it that scares you?
Somehow, your subconscious is trying to tell you something and you aren't listening!
Maybe it's that you need to stop watching scary movies at two o'clock in the morning, or maybe it's that you need to stand up for yourself. Maybe you need to take risks. Maybe you need to do what you want instead of what others want you to do.
I can't explain how, but I truly believe that our dreams are our minds way of telling us what we're doing wrong, and what we need to do to improve ourselves.