So What Now...?

    I dont understand this at all. The feeling of being empty, alone...... I thought I'd have this friend forever, I had his love and that was great, I really did love every minute of it.  So I understand that he took that away, but I never wanted to lose him as a friend.

(Was it somthing i said..?)

    Guess I'll never know huh? Okay... so maybe its hard to stop thinking about him. I just cant all of a  sudden  imagine my life without him. If breaking me..... makes him happy, then good. I want him to be happy with what ever he does. If it means forgetting me, then... *takes deep breath, lets it out shakingly* then so be it. But he should know i'm always here if he needs me, I will never turn my back on him.

*sighs painfully*

I truelly want him back.... so what now....?