Let me go at the venting first.
I was a member of a site I mention in my bio . I found the site through google five years ago when I'd just started tinkering with my s / o's computer . The only experience I'd had with a computer was at a job I had as assistent to catering manager. So, google actually was my teacher ! I learned by doing.
One day, five years ago I googled " I Hate My MIL " . For those of you who don't know......thats mother in law. I did, and I do still but always with love !
That took me to E.P. and in these years there I made a lot of friends. But, I've come to realize all friends aren't the friend to me that I was to them I'm the type who cares so much, and deeply when I see a friend in need. Unfortunatly most of those " friends " wouldn't, couldn't recipicate when I was in need. Maybe they never noticed, or maybe they didn't know how to approach me, so I'm as much to blame for all the hard feelings as they are. I expected to much.
Maybe. I mean what does it take to say " I see you are not in a good place, can I help "? I did it for five years, every day. Even when I wasn't in a good place myself. * shrugs*
I'm still waiting for staff of E.P. to remove my profile as I requested.
I have many illnesses for which I am on disability .
I have a seizure disorder. Petit mal. I got hit in the head more than Ali I believe, and from 14 on to 22 . At that range of ages there's a lot of growing and developing.
I have COPD., and fibromyalgia. Hepetitis C, because of drug use and sharing needles. Am I scaring you away yet ?
I have arthritis also from misuse of my young body. Broken bones from beatings....* sighs*
I think that's about all for now. I'll be having a bypass on my left leg in August and then the right one some time after.
I'm tired now.....