Sick and Tired of Things That Don't Matter

I am sick and tired of everything. Every problem that arises makes me want to scream with rage and run into the poring rain without an umbrella and feel the cold, sharp sting of water droplets pelting my skin. I want to yell to the heavens for causing so much problems, i want to cry myself dry and numb so that i wont have to feel again, but most of all, i want the world to disappear. Why do people need to pester me with situations that will never matter later in life? Why do i need to do things and favors for others when no one does things for me? Why do people care naught for my feelings when i care for others? It is making me rather cold.....my heart is growing hollow. Is there anything that can repair the noticeable damage that is taking place? No. I think not. Nothing and no one can make parents stop drinking alcohol and syblings stop being annoying and phycotic. Nothing can prevent my english teacher from forming opinions on my constant introspective behavior and from giving me a C. Nothing. So why do i try? Why do i ponder over every aspect of my life and how nothing changes? Hm? Why? Ill tell you why: because life needs hope. Life needs spontaneous moments of courage and love to drive you. Life needs friends to guide us, mothers to care for us, summers to waste away, and distractions to put our minds off the things that matter but need not be dwelled upon. Perhaps that is life: to be loved. Or perhaps my mind is jumping around too much and no one will comment on this random rant for fear of my craziness. Whatever. Ah well. Doesnt matter. Be infinite, my readers. Love life. Dont fret and ponder over problems. In the end, everything turns out to be fine :) and if it doesnt, write a rant like me!