Hurt time after time unintentionally, intentionally, the reason doesn't help cushion the blow. I always think that It wouldn't matter if I back out, I'm just one little person part of this big world. Although it may be the only thing that you can clearly see in life, its not true. I know I'm good for something I just haven't found it yet and while it is hard to believe when your feeling terrible, all your endurance and strength will pay off. No you may not win a million dollars or a new extravagant gift, but there will be a part of you inside that feels the reward in each and every smile. Those are the moments that you feel the reward for not giving up, for giving yourself another chance.