Today my mother was again on my back to get a job as she constantly is.  Obviously she wants me to work so I can have some of my own independence.  It would be so nice right now we are grown apart so much.  Honestly it is not surprising for either of us would you expect a fifty four year old woman and an eighteen your old man to get along living in a house together.  Yeah we could get along and some people in the situation might but we just pretty much want to be on our own at this point right now.  In my life I am forced to be here at this moment and when I say forced it is not that I am shackled to this house but this is where I think I should be currently.  Your life moves in waves in cycles it plateaus and here is where you tell the character of a person on some levels.  Myself I may seem like I sit back and willingly sit here at a plateau of my life.  How would you really see a plateau in a life though.  I am in school so my education is not stationary.  I think this should be suffice for a parent to not expect more then going to college.  Though the fact is because I go to school online at my house apparently more is expected of me due to the fact that I am not on a campus.  I would like to concentrate on mainly just school and this is what I say to her.  She replies that our house is expensive and there is way to much work around here that I can’t do on my own.  This is a conversation we have so many times.  I came up with a system that works for me that is hassle free for house work.  Now I hate chores like the next person but my solution was for her to put three chores that she wanted me to do on a piece of paper on the fridge for each day excluding the weekends.  These tasks would be varied each day and out of the three I would have my choice of one that I would do for that day.  The nice aspect of this is on the list I get to pick the task I hate the least.  I contribute to the ease of chores around the house on her shoulders.  It is much easier to remember.  The rotating aspects of things that I am doing and my free will to personally pick makes it seem less of a bother for me.  I truly believe if your children are anti helping around the house and it will work they feel like they have a decision in the matter.  Do not incorporate any reward in this.  My mother and I at one point had tried to incorporate a reward and it turned out that I had the option to do these tasks now in return for a monetary reward per task I do.   I could do three of the tasks and make lets say fifteen dollars because it is round.  So over the five days if I did all the chores assigned and possible to do on the list I would have made seventy five dollars.  While this could have been a great opportunity I as a person really do not give two shits about money not that I shouldn’t I just don’t have to pay for rent and a car.  I think it is dumb that it is needed to do these things though and it infuriates me.  So I here get a job constantly.  I am content at the rate and what I am doing looking for a job.  I believe I said this before but I will repeat myself and say that I have worked at two restaurants dealing with food.  I have stories to go with them that I guess I will jump into right now.  One was a sub shop by the name of Great America Subs.  I am unsure but I believe the owners name was Tim.  I had been eating there for about six months.  I was around the age of fifteen or sixteen at the time and had just dropped out of school no license, no car, no G.E.D.  I end up getting a job under the table at a whopping six fifty an hour thank god for that.  Since you can’t here sarcasm in text I was sarcastic.  I had been enjoying this place they some what hazed me to an extent it was not incredibly bad.  I was slow at making some of the subs chopping the strips of steak apart for the steak and cheese and the chopping of chicken with spatulas.  A majority of my  time was spent in the back doing prep of meats, filling sauces, onions, ect.  One of the hazing things that was of an extreme confusion to me was the fact that my boss was in the back room and I was as well doing prep and he said we were going to start on his end and then he was going to try to push me to the Pepsi cooler and I was to push him against the wall.  So I got down low and in my opinion I had already one and did get him against the wall but apparently not and then he grabs my belly fat seeing as I was larger then most likely about two hundred pounds.  He twists that and then pushes me back to the Pepsi cooler and wins even though I won.  Tim and another one of my good friends got into some random argument and engaged in slanderous accusations of one another’s businesses.  I being naive and young told each person what the other said.  This resulted in a near law suit and me quitting my job there.  My next job I worked for less than a week.  I had no car and was walking three and a half miles to my previous job that was part time.  This job at Harold’s square was full time and more or less only a mile or two from my house.  This place was a more up scale New York style eatery and or pizza shop.  Here I again washed dishes and did prep.  I made money over the counter this time only seven dollars.  Not bad but this place sucked.  I got free pizza that was left over and that was fun but I never had the chance to cook and this is when I was in my I want to own a restaurant phase.  One of the chefs ended up touching my ass and that was extremely awkward for me considering he was one of those creepy looking people with the light moustache just weird.  I was seventeen maybe so in the first place it is sexual harassment secondly it is some form of improper child bull crap.  I don’t really consider seventeen childish but it was disgusting.  I ended up quitting that job and have not held a job since then.  The pay check I received was spent on my first times I ever smoked weed.  I picked up smoking weed right around this time and this is when I met Pete for your time line.  Boy was I a retard that is all I can say I used to pay twenty dollars for one point four grams.  That is a rip off if you didn’t know but I was again not really knowledgeable of what the hell I should be getting since I had not really smoked weed before.  If you are smoking mid grades you should be able to get and eighth or three point five grams for a maximum of thirty dollars.  That is on the high end but I would not pay anything more then that.  You will see people selling one point seven or eight grams for twenty dollars.  This again is on the expensive end for the amount you get.  Here this would be the minimum amount for the money.  People are always going to try and tell you that their mid grades are outdoors  of indoors a lot of the time they are trying to hype their weed to make money on something that cost less by making you think it is better.  My sure fire method to getting good weed if it smells like skunk then it is skunk and that is good weed.  My current attempts at looking for work are that corresponding with the search of tasks I love.  I am looking online at modeling or acting jobs as I just have a passion for acting, voices, and improvisation.  My mom is not happy with these attempts she just wants me to make money that seems to be all that matters to her in life and it is so sad for me seeing people completely infatuated on something like this.  I have many passions in life I am a big fan of doing so many various types of activities.  I have gotten into the editing process of movies through Anime Music Videos AMV’s  and now I would not mind doing editing on a movie in the work force I enjoy it.  I also have been very flamboyant throughout my entire life and over the years I have created voices and personalities that I use to make people laugh.  I have recently ventured into painting which I am loving so much it is so calming and peaceful.  I love to write obviously or I wouldn’t be doing it.  My other passion is gaming and yes by this I mean playing video games.  I would love to make and attempt to play video games competitively at a professional level. I currently play counter strike source a First Person Shooter or fps.  This game is played in the Championship Gaming Series or CGS.  The CGS offers about a thirty thousand dollar salary for the players who play competitively.  The counterstrike players play in teams of five.  I am a very good player in my opinion and I could go pro if I was given the appropriate team and time.  Within a year I guarantee that if I had the correct team I could make the CGS.  I have been the leader of one team that turned into another team.  The first season half way through I ended up becoming the strat caller.  Strat caller is the person who develops and decides which specific means of strategy to use while attacking on the terrorist side.  There are two sides in counter strike the counter terrorist side who try to protect two bombsites and the terrorist side who try to blow up either one of the bomb sites.  You can win by killing all five on the apposing team planting the bomb which results in the thirty second delayed explosion in which those thirty seconds the ct’s or counter terrorists can defuse the bomb to win.  I began to develop and call strats.  I believe that I was extremely ingenious in my analysis of the maps and execution of specific ideas.  We did all right as a team and in our second team that was revamped we had no dedication to practice at all other then myself and another person.  This ended my attempts at running a team and I am currently discouraged in perusing that goal but I still may.  I am currently beginning to play DOA 4 or Dead or Alive 4 the fighting game series.  This game is also played in the CGS but it is a lone player game I would have no need for a team.  That is a tangent right there that completely deviates somewhat but does explain a little.  I guess I could continue by saying I do not think I am in a plateau at all.  I feel I am making progress and continuing to enjoy life as I see fit.  I am bettering my education and perusing goals and dreams of jobs that I would enjoy working.  I think everyone should do what they love even the killers that love killing.  That may sound weird at first but technically why would a killer not join the army they would then receive no punishment legally for doing what they love instead they would receive praise.  How about these kids that are about to go and shoot everyone in their school just go join the army and pretend that the people they are killing are these evil children and young adults at their school.  Just an idea.  I think we should all peruse passions in life.  In all honesty what determines success in the work field.  Is there a list with a required job title or minimum requirement to be successful.  I think that the only way to be successful in the work field is to negate the income even though it may by some logic effect you home life.  Negate the income and just do what you love and if you love what you do isn’t that true success.  This brings me to another point what is the definition of the good life.  Is the rich man with a wife and a girl and boy living the good life.  Is the elderly widow with cancer living the good life.  Is a family of six living in a small house with two parents working their asses off for forty thousand a year living the good life.  Ask all of these parents what their most important goal in their life was.  The elderly woman would answer  to find love and to give me children a better life then I had.  The couple with four children would give you the same answer.  Would the rich man give you this answer and if he does would this not be ridiculous and selfish.  My guess the rich guy would say to become wealthy to some degree but then include his family.  The wife to bag me a rich one and have kids so I can get his money even if we get divorced.  She would not say that but most likely think it.  I am  stereotyping I realize that I am sure that not all situations are like these.  The process in which I thought today just had me questioning who really live the good life.  The rich guy I don’t think he is living the good life.  On the surface things may seem shiny and new but this surface has cracks and rust hidden underneath.  This family of six is grim covered on the surface but if you dig deep enough down you may find that on the inside there is a diamond.  These people working so had to make lives better for their family are living a good life.  This elderly woman with cancer.  She has the privilege of knowing when she will die.  I propose this question to you if you had the choice would you want to know when you die?  This elderly woman is the proud mother of a husband who died fighting for out country.  Her son following in the glory of his fathers honor and fighting in Vietnam.  Returning home with and receiving the medal of valor.  He started his family now and has fought for our freedom at home if that is what you call it.  Still the effort of fighting is righteous.  Even if the fight is not these brave souls are the soul and backbone of what our country is built on.  Bravery and Pride in America things we have but may have long forgotten when will be the day we stand up and take back what we deserve.  This woman while the table is scratched and losing color underneath the wood is still as precious and beautiful as it always was.  She is living the good life.  The good life what is it to you.  Are you living a good life or settling for what people tell you is required.  I will not settle for less then my good life and my battle requires all my pride bravery and strife.  May I see the day when people truly live their own good life.  Those who come to this country and work the jobs as janitors and as people working jobs that some stuck up people refuse to accept as a real job.  If you were to ask people if they loved life and were happy you would see that these people are by far the happiest people.  You ask them why they are happy and why they came to America.  The answer is always the same I am happy because my kids have the opportunity to get an education as well as have a good job.   I came here to make a better life for my children in America.  This in my eyes is the good life maybe the best life.  If you have the chance listen to the song High School Never Ends by bowling for soup it is so true.  The aspect that social status and clicks continue to present themselves in the work world even way past college.  If you see the rich man who is seen as one of the preppy popular guys.  He is married to the cheerleader of the school who makes the perfect house wife.  On the side he decides to cheat on one of the school sluts or the secretary at work.  Not sure this is an entire encompassment of the saying just one small example.  What is the determination of social status and what is the point of demeaning someone and making them feel as if they are less of a human than the next.  Sorry guys here we go again on another school related tangent they just seem to manage to keep popping up in my head so I apologize.  I notice that everywhere the intelligence is for some reason or another gradually declining.  I suggest that we form a mandatory class in all schools in which we give the students a letter and a number.  There would be three numbers per letter.  Determined by the week each would be grouped by letter of the same number or by the same letter.  Would it be weird calling people by letters and numbers I don’t think so considering we are merely letters and numbers to the people that want our money and decide that we are not aloud to have health care.  This class would be centrally focused on making people think again.  How would we accomplish this you say we form some variation of a debate class.  I am not saying these really uninteresting meaningless topics though.  The teams would get a team that will face them with no topic assigned.  The interest of the two teams will be discussed and one they find something they both feel strongly about the counter argument that is their topic.  Do daily or bi daily debates and this will instill the idea of free thinking and question of what is it really that makes things so great.  For all I care they could debate between whether normal intercourse or anal intercourse is better as long as the have a legitimate logic behind it.  What is with this bull crap required criteria that we need to meet by the school board standards.  They need to stop kidding them selves this school plan and criteria they have set in motion may be of a seemingly high level but how is it available to all in the state when the education and level that is received varies so much.  We pay teachers to tell them what to teach just not how to teach it if you ask me this is illogical.  If you are required to know some pointless aspect of math let’s say just because the board of education says that you need to learn it.  In all aspects of life and all fields of work you will never learn this and yet we require our teachers to make sure that the students know how to do it.  Let the teachers teach what they find relevant.  My idea of a real education would not involve attendance to class.  I could not care if you attend class if you can come in on test days and take that test and pass then good for you the material was held in you head.  If you come to class homework will be optional and not graded.  The purpose of homework is to help you understand the material better correct.  So you should not be forced into a repetition of things you already know so the homework would be if you really are having trouble with the specific information.  Overall grades should not be based on attendance or homework but the actual depth and knowledge of the subject at hand.  The test during the year should be fifty percent of your grade.  Then your final should be fifty percent of your grade this way the bullshit work is not needed.  The need for homework may apply to some people.  Others may need to attend class to learn but I feel why make people more dumb.  If someone does not need to here you lecture all day and can still learn the material let them make a good use of their time as apposed to sitting in school bored doing nothing and hating every minute of it.  They then begin to socialize in class creating disruptions so the people actually learning or having a difficult time of the concept can learn.  When I say home work not graded by that I mean the grade does not count against you actual grade.  You would obviously correct this paper and go over the incorrect aspects in attempts to help people figure out what they are doing right or wrong.  If we could devise a way were it does not effect peoples grade and multiple ranges of intelligence can coincide in a honestly un hostile environment.  Wouldn’t that be a real school?  I personally know I would have preferred a school like this.  That is all for today sorry slow on The happening article and or evaluation.  If you feel like you want to add me on my space at www.myspace.com/pinkdotcom  I will be forming a group that is proactive in thinking of new ways we could possibly better America sometime soon.  I will let you know what this group is called at that point even though I am by no means sure of how we will do it.  That is why we will think and discuss it I presume.  See you in our better tomorrow.  With my heart and love I wish you another tomorrow.