Today I was fortunate enough to have the chance to go to court for my trial.  My trialing is regarding five charges.   The primary charge that they really are trying to convict me on is D.U.I.  The police have attempted to get me for a dui before but this case was dismissed as they didn’t have one.  They have three police officers that are going to testify against me.  Their was another case regarding a state prisoner that ended up taking priority over ours so we had to reschedule.  We will no be going back to court on August 18th.  I met the most interesting and intriguing man their.  He was I would say late fifty’s early sixties.  He was balding with white hair and a goatee.  He had on really modernly fashionable tight pants.  This was somewhat weird seeing a man his age where bleached tight pants.  However this is not the part that intrigued me it was the conversation I had the privilege of having.  We enter the Derry District Court and pass through the metal detectors.  My mom ended up setting off one of the metal detectors.  The security man with the wand  starts to sweep over her body and as he passes over her head it beeps.  She was wearing a barrette but I cracked a joke about the metal plate in her head.  There was a note that was on a bench outside of our courtroom.  So we go up these two flights of stairs to a high ceiling room with L shapes corner benches down the wall which must be at least twenty or twenty-five meters.  We walk down towards the end of the benches we pass by the courtroom doors and the little mini archway to a small cubby with a four person bench.  This is where my mom and I end up sitting and here we wait for our attorney.  I had noticed a piece of paper to the left of me that said “Request a speedy trial.  Ask for a continuation till August 18th.”  This paper was not ours and I had made a remark about the benefit of a speedy trial to my mom.  Then this gentleman that I had described previously walks over and sits down next to us.  He begins to look at the paper I state that it is not ours.  He also make a remark about the speedy trail.  We somehow begin to talk about my case to an extent.  My lack of a license, car, job, and he is giving me advice on what to do.  It was very kind of him to give us advice because at this point he did not know I had an attorney.  I had mentioned that it was not my first time being in court but I would not be their for another offense related to drinking.  I said if I ever get into trouble again with the “Law” which I know I will it will be for political reasons.  I am filled with anger and sorrow about what this man says to me.  Not anger directed at him but anger at how he was wronged.  He begins to tell this story of why he is here since I mentioned political and that was his reasoning for being in court.  He had bought ten acres of land that was the wetlands.  He had only paid ten thousand dollars at the time.  The town of Londonderry then decides to build their soccer fields right across the street from their property.  He says that the reason the wet lands are wet is because of a specific water source.  Londonderry now needs to water their soccer fields so what do they do they take the water from the stream.  Not sure if it is a stream but it might be something like that.  It dries up the wetlands and this is against state and federal laws.  This town has the right to destroy the wetlands now.  He complains to them about this after they appraise his land at $110,000 for his taxes.  The land is now dried and trees are beginning to grow if this land were all filled with trees and could be built on it would be worth 1 million he says.  The town offers to buy the land after he complains about the water.  They come to him with an offer of 55,000.  He rejects this offer and then goes to the tax office.  He goes here to get his taxes abated due to the fact that his property isn’t worth what they said it was.  The town appraised the property for 110,000 and then comes back and only offers 55,000.  This would not be considered corrupt at all of course I mean who raises taxes just for the hell of it when absolutely nothing has changed.  He then has an independent person come in an appraise his property.  This guy then says his property is worth 10,000.  This is due to the fact that it is wetlands.  He then goes back to the office and is in the process of having his taxes adjusted again.  The town also built the fire station on you guessed it wetlands.  One of the other people in the town had asked to build on a specific piece of property and they refused.  Guess which place the fire station was built on this exact space.  Corruption or greed selfishness or not caring what kind of society does this.  What is the point it just seems so dumb to me it makes no sense at all.  My mom and I just had a fight about burnt pizza.  This is pathetic.  I asked her to watch pizza for me and it ended up being burnt.  I was upset and she ended up turning it into something about my own independence and why didn’t I do it myself.  I asked her once and she said no to watching it.  The second time I asked she said yes.  She then said that she said no the first time.  I asked why did you say yes the second time.  She said she didn’t mean it.  I am trusting you when you say something just to make me happy and you have no intention of doing it.  Stupid fight it happened so by obligation I have to write it.  We begin to talk about the car accident that I was in for this dui case.  I remember driving home from college as to whether or not I had been drinking interpret for yourself right now just incase not going to say anything since it is in court.  I was going “45” my story is.  Might be something more like 80.  I remember driving down this road so fast and I lose three small seconds of my memory.  I had been thinking throughout my entire life that I am meant to do something great for the world.  If this is true or not I am still unsure but I plan on trying damn hard.  Recently I had been thinking that if I were to live through something retarded and tragic then I would be destined to do something for the world like I had believed.  I was still doing drugs and technically this may be suicidal thoughts.  I had no intention of blatantly crashing my car this night or ever.  I lost three second I wake up to complete silence I see my airbags already deployed and feel the car spiraling some how.  My first thought is holy shit I just crashed my car.  The drivers side window was completely smashed out and I did not have a seatbelt on.  I was later picked up down the road “fleeing the scene.”  Consider it was three am and I did not have a cell phone I just totaled my car I am disoriented as fuck.  I was within about two or three miles of my house when I crashed so I began to walk and then run.  I had some lacerations on my left arm from the glass and I was bleeding.  This was the main source of my pain at the time but later I did find out that I had an AC ligament separation in my shoulder.  It was only a first degree and was not that bad or painful at all.  This accident believe it or not did not give me one of those awakening I guess I was hoping for.  I know that I want to do something great I just don’t know where and how to start.  Was I more grateful for life yes to an extent.  Am I grateful right now yes but I am prick to my mom some times and I hate myself for it.  I wear my scar with pride knowing that I will never forget the memories attached to my body through this imprint.  This man that we were sitting next to talks about his brother I believe it was going eighty down and off ramp on a highway trying to pass someone.  He ends up sliding and hitting the guardrail he mentions their sunroof was open.  He says that his brother was with his girlfriend the both get thrown from the car out of the sunroof.  He lands and his back is scrapped pretty  badly but he is alive.  The girl she lands in a bush and is fine.  The car rolls down a hill tumbling and it turns on the roof while stopping and catching fire.  The remark he made here with a certain compassion and strength while near crying but not visibly crying.  I guess he was meant to do something important with his life.  This touched me and made me feel guilty about not being more proactive in my quest so far.  This man reminds me so much of myself in the way he talk acts and has a sense of passion about him.  I mention that I want to get into acting and couldn’t do this because of the lack of transportation.  He says you have to start small go to casting calls ect.
I really don’t know how to end this today so goodbye till tomorrow.