March 26, 2011
Too bad it's Saturday, I don't really see anyone today. That makes me bored, but I can still talk to you about all the boys I know. I really do think I was in love with Jake. I know I'm only 13, but he was the love of my life… Oh, I actually do have something to say. I was talking to Cal (Calvin), yes he's a boy and I talk to him. Anyway, I was talking to him, and he's really sweet. He told me he likes Livia, though. That's a shame; I could have been great with him, but I do like other people more. Justin? Yeah, I can't lie. Justin is one of the people at the top of my mind even though I've only known him a few months. He's really sweet. Wow, I've switched topics like 4 times in this paragraph already, my brain is really scattered today. I guess love is just getting to me again, or Jake is, well same difference really. Aw, I really do miss him. I can still see his face like it was yesterday, but some of the memories are fading, which makes me sad.
I really should get over Jake, but I just can't. He's still got me so tightly in his grip, I wonder if I'll ever be able to let him go. But, then again, I think I am seriously also falling for Justin. I mean, I think about him just as much as I think about Jake. It's getting a little insane, really. I dream about both of them. It's such a hard choice! And I've been horribly boy-crazy over the past few months, but I'm finally stopping and I only like two people right now. That's incredible for me. I think my record is 5; you see how crazy I am, Joe? Yeah, I know I'm probably boring you with all this; most guys don't like talking about love. Cal's different though; he seems to understand why I like who I do. You know, I've always really wanted a boy I could talk to about this kind of stuff. Not to insult you or anything, Joe, but it's great to have a real boy to tell these things to.
Write again once I actually have something to say…