"This can't be." I felt my knees wobble and give out underneath me. I hit the hard wood floor with a thump, burying my head in my hands, weeping. Attempting to get all the sadness from within me. My only thought was how could this get any worse. My mind drifed to a few minutes before, replaying the scene in my head like a never ending horror movie.
"My Lady, i have horrid news." She flew over to the couch, so Damon and i joined her, not knowing what was going on. "Look, this may be hard for you, it certainly was for every one, but for you-"
"Stop right there. Don't sugar coat it please, just tell me what happened." I thought that i would be strong enough for the news that was to come, but boy was I wrong.
"Ok, but you aren't going to like it. Draco is dead, and Lucas is missing." Tears streamed down her cheeks with the same bluish tint the rest of her had, the glow that was slowly fading."The shifters had apparently been following our group, and set up a trap knowing our path. It was horrible, there was blood everywhere. One of the shifters went after Lucas, and Draco killed it, but with it's last dying breath, killed him. He told Lucas that this was a warning, that there was more where this came from." She drew in a shuddering breath and continued, "The other one flew off, and Lucas went after it. When we went to go look for him, we couldn't find him.He is probably dead." She was sobbing now, this whole incident was clearly effecting her badly, to be honest, it was taking it's toll on me too, i was hurting bad. I wanted to fall to my knees and weep, to mourn for the lost, the loved, soon to be the forgotten.
"What happened to the rest of them?" I asked her, wanting to change the subject before i lost it. I so badly wanted to break down right there, but i couldn't i had to be strong, i had to be a leader.
"The rest are on their way to the fortress to find Lucas, I flew back because i thought you should know. i am going to be staying with you, you need more magick on your side than just yours, it will not be enough should we be attacked." A few more fairies are on their way for back up. We shall protect you at all costs."
After that, i was spaced out, i wasn't listening, i didn't care to be honest. All i could think was that this was my fault, my fault that i didn't pay attention in the forest, my fault that i fell into quicksand, my fault i made out with Damon not knowing it was Damon, my fault that i didn't go after him soon enough, my fault that they were dead. I could have saved everyone, it was all my fault.
My fault, those two words echoed in my head and repeated themselves over and over until i couldn't take it anymore.
I was weeping and sobbing so hard, my chest hurt from heaving. I tried to stop, it was difficult, but soon, i almost had it unde control. I had no idea how long i was on the floor, but as soon as i felt Damon's arms wrap around me, i lost it again, a fresh wave of sadness crashing into me anew. It felt like i was in the ocean, and every time i would try to stand and get out of the water, a new wave would hit me and i would fall, starting the struggle over untill i had no more energy left to fight against it. I cried into Damon's shirt for what felt like hours, his hand stroking my hair reassuringly, whispering soothing words in my ear, rocking me back and forth.
I finally stopped though, because it felt like i had no tears left to cry, so i wiped my face, stood up and said "I am going to bed, do what ever you want, come with me, stay, i don't care." Of course he came with me, to make sure i was ok. That was the moment i realized that i was in love with him.