A Musical Life

“I remember it was only a few days when you broke my heart. It was then that I knew our lives were torn apart, but then you came and said I would be the one you always and forever love.” these are the words to a lost song that will always remain in my heart. I really do try to find the rest of the words from in back of my head, but I come up with nothing. Sometimes at night I look out my window and see the stars and the moon in the sky and I sigh to myself, could my life be any worse. I mean, yeah I have everything that girl dreams to have, but it really wasn’t what I wanted. I mean I want to wander in adventure and meet the love of my life. Instead I’m the rich girl that have guys fawning at her because of a high bank account. I can’t really choose who I want to be with, because daddy wants someone he thinks he can trust. Though I want someone who will love me for me. I like “Writing and reading and even learning things too. I love to swim in the river and dance around in my room. Heck I even love singing too. Now if only father can see the things I do, the only thing he’ll say is ‘This is not the thing for you’ but I tell him this is my hearts wish and desire of what I love to do. If only he can see through the eyes of mine and see why I love the things I do. Though he asks for a man who can say he’s legit and forever take care of me too. Though I know the only thing I see in his eyes are dollar signs. I wish for once I can see me too” I just sang what I felt right now. Everything I said is also very true. I look at myself in the mirror and I see is plain blue eyes and reddish brown hair that goes to my waist, everything I look at seems so very plain. I wish I really can say something to my father, but I’m his little angel girl, the petite one everyone seems to say. I can only stare out the window and daze off into a world that I can love to be mine. A world that I have is when my last name changes from Seana(Sh-a-na) to something else. Which I also may have forgotten my name is Samantha Ciana Seana daughter of Kentle Sath Seana. Though this seems to only happen in my dreams.