I woke up from the worst nightmare yet, I looked at my clock
there was still another hour until I had to get ready but I
wasn't going back to sleep, I got ready anyway and walked
downstairs and my mom was making breakfast weird she was usually
at work by now or sleeping in.
"Good morning honey, oh my god what happened to your lip?"
"Uh last night after I got out of the shower the floor was wet
and I slipped and hit my lip off the door knob"
Oh my god I come up with the stupidest excuses ever but
surprisingly she believed it.
"Oh baby you always were clumsy. You have to be more
"Yeah I know mom"
"Sit down I made pancakes & let's talk I have been so busy
lately that I hardly get to see you baby girl"
"Yeah I know"
"So how's everything with school? Any cute guys? Do you have
yourself a boyfriend yet?
Oh what about Jennifer? I haven't seen her in ages. You to
aren't fighting are you? Oh and there is this amazing sale at the
mall this weekend we should go and-"
"Woah, Woah holy crap mom breathe everything is great with
school, and yes there are cute guys its high school, No I do not
have a boyfriend yet and neither does Jenn and no were not
fighting we just usually hangout at her place or go where ever
and thanks for breakfast but I got to leave now"
I walked upstairs and brushed my teeth and came back down
stairs and mom was putting dishes in the dish washer.
"I'm leaving now Bye"
"Wait sweetheart come straight home after school"
"I can't mom I have to help Nick with his school work After
"Alright hun but who's nick?"
"Just some guy I have to help with school bye"
I got out of there as soon as I could, I didn't hate my mom
but I wasn't best friends with her either everything was awkward
after my dad died seven years ago and with Kert and everything I
kept my distance. I finally got to school where Jenn was waiting
by the entrance.
"What the hell happened to your lip?"
"The floor was wet after I got out of the shower and I hit my
lip off the door knob"
"Hey Babe" we heard Jake shout
"EWWW" Jenn said loud enough for Jake to hear his smiled
vanished for a second but came back mischievous.
"Awwwh don't be like that especially after Friday's party" he
said while pulling her against him and started leaning in.
Jenn pushed him so hard he landed on his ass she got right in
"Nothing Happened Friday, so stay away from me"
"Ok Jenn come on" I said before she hut the guy.
I heard nick laugh as he went over to help jake up.
"Oh you really have a way with the ladies" he said still
I grabbed Jenn's wrist and pulled her inside so we could walk
to my locker I wanted to avoid nick till at least after school
because if he see's my lip he's not going to leave me alone.
"Why didn't you stay and talk to nick?"
"Uh I wanted to grab my books that I need"
"Girl we have another 15 minutes before we have to get are
books your scared to talk to him aren't you?"
"Why would I be scared to talk to him?"
"I don't know you tell me"
'its nothing so leave it"
Uggh she was always trying to figure out what was going on
with me, but I never told her I couldn't and I wouldn't but she
was getting close to figuring it out.
"Abby its not nothing, what's going on that your so scared to
be with nick, do you have some secret boyfriend your not telling
"Of course not, really its nothing"
"Abby I can't take this anymore you are always coming to
school hurt in someway but you won't let anybody in, we have been
like sisters since we were 5 I have never lied or hidden anything
from you, I trust you with my life but you obviously don't trust
me, I can't watch you like this anymore, you need help but you
wont let anybody help you, so I'm done you can figure out what
you need to do by yourself, be the smart girl I know you are"
with that she got up and walked away.
"Jenn wait please"
"No Abby I'm done waiting, I can't take this anymore"
"Jenn please its not what you think"
"Then what is it stop hiding things from me and let me help
"Its hard to explain"
"See there you go again, call me when the real Abby reenters
"No Abby I'm done"
I watched her walk down the hall uggh everything's falling
Dad why did you have to leave me everything's been a mess
since I thought to myself as I walked outside and sat at the
picnic table under the big tree facing away from school just
incase I started to cry.
Why, why am I being punished? I don't know what I did wrong
please god please if your listening dad even someone who's
watching over me I need help please I just want a normal life, I
want to be a normal 17 year old I can't take this much pain, I'm
losing everyone because I can't open up to anyone, but no on
realizes that I'm trying to protect them, please give me strength
to get through this and maybe tell someone daddy I know promised
you I would always be strong, and stand up for myself, but I
don't know if I even no how to be strong anymore, I need you now
more then ever, I miss you daddy please help me threw this.
I didn't realize that I was crying until I opened my eyes and
everything was blurry I let the tears escape then wiped them away
quickly, I got up knowing that I would have to put cover up on
again, I saw Jenn and nick talking and looking in my direction
they both looked upset and pissed I quickly walked into the
school and into the bathroom surprised that there was no one
there, I put the cover up on , and grabbed my books and headed to
math class I was the only one in there besides Mr.J
"Your early Abby"
"Anything you want to talk about?"
"Well if your sure. But if you ever need to talk to someone
but don't know who I'm here"
"No problem so do you want to know your mark from your math
"100 as usual you keep your grades the way they are now next
year and your set for a scholarship"
"Good to know"
"You know this school is proud of you, I think you're the only
student who gets hundreds in everything every year, it will be a
nice to see a student get a scholarship for something not sport
"Thanks Mr.J that actually cheered me up"
"Again no problem"
Another person walked in I looked to see who it was shit its
nick I looked away quickly.
"Well Nick this is a surprise I never thought I'd see you show
up early for a class if you even showed up at all"
"Yeah well I'm getting my life together so I can maybe pass
"Well that's like since I hear Abby's helping you"
"Mr.j well I'll leave you two alone so you can start to catch
No shit don't leave me here I thought but he just walked out
"So you fell down the stairs?" nick asked irritated.
"Well that's what you told Jenn & that's how you broke
your rib why didn't you tell me about that, but what I'm really
confused about is did you fall down the stairs or did you get
jumped or are they both lies to cover up the truth"
"The reason I didn't tell you I broke a rib is because it
never came up in conversation secondly I told Jenn I fell down
the stairs because I didn't want her to worry that's the
"Sure it is Abby what happened to your lip?"
"The floor was wet when I got out of the shower last night I
slipped and hit off the door knob"
"Ok what about all the other times you came to school with a
split lip or something broken?"
"I'm clumsy that's all"
"I don't believe you; I see why Jenn's done with you"
"You heard me she can't take anymore of your lies; now start
telling the truth or I'm going to find out who's hurting you one
way or another"
" I am telling the truth and what are you threatening me, what
are you going to do stalk me to fin that out because I will call
the police, you know what stay away from me, I'll still help you
with school work for an hour or 2 after school in the library but
other then that I don't want you to come near me and tell your
father and brother I don't want to meet them now or ever" with
that I got up and walked away leaving him pissed off, I needed to
see my dad today after school after I'm done helping nick. I
can't believe life one minute its heaven the next its hell I
don't know how much longer I can take this.