its that feeling of hurt, of reaching your braking pioint, falling in love, a non-returned love a hurt so deep that you jusst want to be numb to it all. Tears fall and your walls crumble around you. Your no longer seccure or safe. You walked 3 steps forward only to be told that you can't go any further. Your chest begins to ache and you over sentivty takes over you. You try call yourself names like stupid, foolish, and crazy to belive what you do. While silently hoping your wrong. While silently hoping someone will prove your inner voice wrong. You count all your blessing and then jump head first into it. You know know it stupid but you don't care. One song rings in your head and you continue to go deeper. Then you realize your drowning. Was it crazy to think things where different. You hoped and hoped but in the end you were wrong. You can't go back because its too far away. You are taken by overwhelming sadness and your heart beats way to fast. You begin to wonder if its worth it at all.
Then you think its worth a try