I was always invisable to everyone
Something old and tattered next to something new
Then there was that day when someone would see me
There was that day when God gave me you
You could look me in the eyes
And smile instead of looking past
I knew that finally, I was no longer a nobody
But I never knew for how long and I never stopped to ask
Our jokes and smiles
Our hopes and flaws
Our weekends together
But for exactly how long?
Everything we always were
Wouldn't just end in a nod of your head
A drop of a hat, a flip of a coin
There was no way that we'd ever be dead
It wouldn't just end in a moment
Not with a snap of your perfect fingers
All of our memories would surely stay
Each other's scent would surely linger
But what if love was meant to fade?
What made it leave was a simple test
If we failed, our love never was
And if not, we've outlived all the rest
But we have failed, our love unreal
Everything of me fading from your sights
It's amazing how easy it was to forget
To show me I am nothing, even in your eyes
Nobody remembers who I am anymore
They fell in love with a crazy, happy girl
A silly little child who was their friend
Their daughter, their sister, who had the world
Soon my smile was on every milk carton
On missing posters all across town
But I was with them all along
An insignificant voice that never made a sound
I was their own Mona Lisa smile
They don't know if I'm only the wind
Everyone looking for their lost, little girl
Searching for beauty and looking past the sinned
You just stand there at the sidelines
Smiling in complete satisfaction
Looking at the Jane Doe you created
Pausing for a moment before you take action
You come to my side and smiled at me
My hopes are soaring, but I know they will crash
So I close my eyes and black out your beauty
And can see the thing that's inside you at last
Instead of taking the bait I wanted so dearly
I closed my eyes and saw who's the Doe
I saw which one of us never really was
I saw that monster that took over long ago
You've stopped being good to me
And you never were good for my health
That pounding heart, those damn butterflies
And to think that for you, I would've hurt myself
You have never been this horrible to me
Never took a second of the day just to see if I'm alive
You've told me I was a Jane, and I knowingly obeyed
Trying to take your heart as you carved into mine
The tears began to come at last, and they wouldn't end
So I took one last look at your and my reflection
I saw a broken picture, just another lost love
And one last idea that will scream perfection
I grabbed a knife and stabbed the old me
And left her bloody, battered soul behind
Then I looked up and saw your waiting face
And knew you wouldn't want to see me happy with those eyes
I walked down the road and left you lying there
With that nobody, insignificant, just-a-girl that you created
That poor, little girl who'd never done any wrong
But if you think that you could see her, you are sadly mistaken
You made me a nobody, that you loved to see
So I killed the Jane and I took your sight
So now you can't see me in pain any longer
You're stuck inside yourself and locked up tight
I left that missing Me behind
And went back to where I'd been forgotten
Where the sun rises and sets every day
And where the air will smell of cotton
No one will need to search any longer
Their little girl will finally come home
They will all talk of how they've missed me
And I will never again feel as if I've been left alone
My smile will return to me
And my heart will heal in time
Because no one else thinks I am invisable
You're the only one, and you're no longer mine



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