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Jane Doe

Poem By: BrokenSilences
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About the feeling of being missing, invisable...Everything that's nothing, basically. But the best part is how nothing can explode into something...Kill the old me and *see the new me-kinda thing..Hope it makes sense...Enjoy! View table of contents...

 

Submitted: Feb 21, 2008    Reads: 42    Comments: 0    Likes: 0   


I was always invisable to everyone

Something old and tattered next to something new

Then there was that day when someone would see me

There was that day when God gave me you

You could look me in the eyes

And smile instead of looking past

I knew that finally, I was no longer a nobody

But I never knew for how long and I never stopped to ask

Our jokes and smiles

Our hopes and flaws

Our weekends together

But for exactly how long?

Everything we always were

Wouldn't just end in a nod of your head

A drop of a hat, a flip of a coin

There was no way that we'd ever be dead

It wouldn't just end in a moment

Not with a snap of your perfect fingers

All of our memories would surely stay

Each other's scent would surely linger

But what if love was meant to fade?

What made it leave was a simple test

If we failed, our love never was

And if not, we've outlived all the rest

But we have failed, our love unreal

Everything of me fading from your sights

It's amazing how easy it was to forget

To show me I am nothing, even in your eyes

Nobody remembers who I am anymore 

They fell in love with a crazy, happy girl

A silly little child who was their friend

Their daughter, their sister, who had the world

Soon my smile was on every milk carton

On missing posters all across town

But I was with them all along

An insignificant voice that never made a sound

I was their own Mona Lisa smile

They don't know if I'm only the wind

Everyone looking for their lost, little girl

Searching for beauty and looking past the sinned

You just stand there at the sidelines

Smiling in complete satisfaction

Looking at the Jane Doe you created

Pausing for a moment before you take action

You come to my side and smiled at me

My hopes are soaring, but I know they will crash

So I close my eyes and black out your beauty

And can see the thing that's inside you at last

Instead of taking the bait I wanted so dearly

I closed my eyes and saw who's the Doe

I saw which one of us never really was

I saw that monster that took over long ago

You've stopped being good to me

And you never were good for my health

That pounding heart, those damn butterflies

And to think that for you, I would've hurt myself

You have never been this horrible to me

Never took a second of the day just to see if I'm alive

You've told me I was a Jane, and I knowingly obeyed

Trying to take your heart as you carved into mine

The tears began to come at last, and they wouldn't end

So I took one last look at your and my reflection

I saw a broken picture, just another lost love

And one last idea that will scream perfection

I grabbed a knife and stabbed the old me

And left her bloody, battered soul behind

Then I looked up and saw your waiting face

And knew you wouldn't want to see me happy with those eyes

I walked down the road and left you lying there

With that nobody, insignificant, just-a-girl that you created

That poor, little girl who'd never done any wrong

But if you think that you could see her, you are sadly mistaken

You made me a nobody, that you loved to see

So I killed the Jane and I took your sight

So now you can't see me in pain any longer

You're stuck inside yourself and locked up tight 

I left that missing Me behind

And went back to where I'd been forgotten

Where the sun rises and sets every day

And where the air will smell of cotton

No one will need to search any longer

Their little girl will finally come home

They will all talk of how they've missed me

And I will never again feel as if I've been left alone

My smile will return to me

And my heart will heal in time

Because no one else thinks I am invisable

 You're the only one, and you're no longer mine

 


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