Standing still, darkness around me
The last regrets in my mind.
I never got to say those words,
those words so hard to find.
I choke and shatter on one single fear;
The fear of my denial.
I cannot bring myself to stand,
Just sitting here on trial.
All alone in my own battle
One with a solemn tear
I cannot control all these words
That started when you left here.
I run away from the very place
Repeating the words I need to say
Crossing borders and tripping on fears
It will never go away.
They sit heavily on my shoulders
Dragging me to a sudden stop
I cannot rid of such a pain
& I need to make it drop.
Saying them is futile
If no one's around to hear
I won't keep the secret to myself
Leaving me in despair.
These words are meant for you
And I cannot hold them in;
These feelings are too much
The air is turning thin.
These words never stop in my head
repeating like the tide
I wish they'd just wash away
& leave me my pride.
What does it take to be alone
without the nagging fear
To hope and shout leaves me weak
Maybe soon I'll disappear.
The sharp pain eases,
As soon I will forget
Things we never said to each other
Are just another regret.
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