Have you any clue how messed up I’ve become
My constant thoughts of you and I
Drifting in and out of consciousness
Peaks and downfalls of happiness
In and out of depressive states
Living to read the text you type me
To hear the subtleness of your voice
To see your piercing beautiful blue eyes
Wanting to spend more time with you
Wanting to learn more about you
All I know thus far, I’ve come to love
Continually strengthening my fondness for you
Doubting my approach to you
As too strong or not strong enough
Constantly searching for a happy medium
Trying not to hurt you
Always second guessing myself
Afraid to tell you what’s on mind
How you make me feel
Afraid of reactions and facial expressions
Afraid of a negative outcome
Contemplating outcomes to myself
Taking jabs at my every weak point
Replaying everything you’ve told me and all I’ve told you
Speaking to no one else’s ears but my own
Pretending yours are there to hear me
Thinking they never will be
Repeating, leave him, be with me
Your past, is just that
I fell for you in the present, with no knowledge of the past
I’m going to stay down for you, for who you are now, and hold you to nothing
You mean that much to me
The one thing I want more than for you to be happy
Is for us to be happy together
Something needs to be said
Something needs to be done
Before feelings start to fade away
I’d like to make it better than just ok
Who am I kidding
I fell for you this fast
And could never lose what I have for you
If my words for you, you fear
If all you’ll take is my expression through a stranger’s voice
Or subtle hints passed through an unknown medium
Expect to see it more often
Even though I want you to hear it all from me
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