Here I Am.......

Here I am

Pushing thirty

Having pissed away

Every minute of the youth

Of my twenties Proving myself to be

An adult Pressing forward professionally

Forgetting social obligations

Becoming socially awkward

Afraid Of sharing myself

With anyone other than myself W

orried No one yearns

For my life to be shared

Dazed In a medicated state

Of antidepression and antianxiety

Damaged From every visual reminder

Of pain

Hurt

Suffering

Loss

Tragedy

Death

Young and Old

Near and Far

That crossed the paths

Of both my eyes

Not ready to quit

Nor will I end by my means

But accept the end as

My true beginning

Ashamed at my emptiness

Disappointed with my lack of concern