I'm not sure...

I don’t know anymore

And to be honest I want nothing much

Other than to rid of this pain

I simply can’t take it

It’s all dug into my skin

Flood into my veins

Buried into the pit of my heart

All this pain

The pain I’ve kept locked away

It does no harm to my body

But an ice cold breeze washes over my heart

There’s nothing more to it

This is just pain taking over

People have hurt me a lot

Both emotionally and physically

Even people I never spoke with say they hate me

I used to always be alone

And in all honesty

I miss being alone

I miss everything about the way things were

I could take everything that used to happen

All of those continuing fight

The people who shunned me and teased me

Yes I could take on all of that

If only I hadn’t opened up my heart to people

Especially people who always tend to leave me

My soul is unwillingly giving up to those who promise to stay with me

And every time those people leave

Tiny bits and pieces of my soul are shredded

My younger years have been filled with nothing but false hope and sorrow

As I grew up I never knew what having a “Childhood” was like

Being forced to grow up into an adult when I’m a teen is painful

And so I’m not very sure on what to do anymore

I guess I’m most likely done

I can’t handle having a heart which pumps cold blood

I can’t handle breathing in short gasps of cold air

I can’t handle having “Friends” who lie about being with my forever

I’ve simply had enough.