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The Suicide Note Of Your Beloved

Poetry By: In The Hands Of
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I'd become in love with a girl for the first time, and she didn't think I really loved her. So I ran up to my room and cried the hardest I ever had, and scribbled this song down in a notebook, literally with my pocket knife in my hand. I was remembering all the times she'd hinted me that she liked me back, the memories we'd had together. And how she'd never look at me the same.


Submitted:Jan 8, 2007    Reads: 365    Comments: 0    Likes: 0   


The Suicide Note Of Your Beloved
Current mood: sad
Category: Music

In this darkness, crying quietly as I can

This knife I'm holding so tightly creates

a gash in my hand

So this is what real heart break feels

like?

My heart hurts more than I can stand

Saying those things, I wanna lay down

and die

Please God put this blade in my chest

, let all the pain end

I'm writing this hurt in the darkness of

my room

Tears are staining this paper

I'm thinking, "how much more could I

make her..."

Understand

That this all wasn't just in my head

You say I don't know you

But I think it's you who doesnt really

know me

Heeeelp me

I mean with all my heart everything I

say

I want to love you, but now I'm too

afraid.

I remember when you held my stare

with your eyes

It kills me everytime it comes into my

mind

Every thought of you rips open scars all

over my body

I scream as there becomes nothing left

of me.

Understand

That this all isn't just in my head

You say I don't know you

But I think its you who doesnt really

know me

Heeeeelp me

I mean every single word I say

I want to love you, but now I'm too

afraid

My soul is not yet empty. you are still

there.

I dont want you to go and leave it bare.

I know you don't love me back

But I hope that you still care.

Don't leave me in this dark

Don't force me to turn my back

After all this time I know

I'm gonna have to deal with being

alone.

Understand

That this isnt just in my head

You say I don't know you

But I think it's you who doesnt know

me.

Heeeelp me

I mean every word I say

I want to love you, please don't go

away

Tell me the truth

Tell me everything

I'll tell you one thing

I'm sorry

Something this song can't explain

I wish you could see

What was and is truly inside of me.





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