Page 1, I'd become in love with a girl for the first time, and she didn't think I really loved her. So I ran up to my room and cried the hardest I ever had, and scribbled this song down in a notebook, literally with my pocket knife in my hand. I was remembering all the times she'd hinted me that she liked me back, the memories we'd had together. And how she'd never look at me the same.

The Suicide Note Of Your Beloved
Current mood: sad
Category: Music

In this darkness, crying quietly as I can

This knife I'm holding so tightly creates

 a gash in my hand

So this is what real heart break feels

 like?

My heart hurts more than I can stand

Saying those things, I wanna lay down

 and die

Please God put this blade in my chest

, let all the pain end

I'm writing this hurt in the darkness of

 my room

Tears are staining this paper

I'm thinking, "how much more could I

make her..."

Understand

That this all wasn't just in my head

You say I don't know you

But I think it's you who doesnt really

 know me

Heeeelp me

I mean with all my heart everything I

 say

I want to love you, but now I'm too

afraid.

I remember when you held my stare

 with your eyes

It kills me everytime it comes into my

mind

Every thought of you rips open scars all

 over my body

I scream as there becomes nothing left

 of me.

Understand

That this all isn't just in my head

You say I don't know you

But I think its you who doesnt really

 know me

Heeeeelp me

I mean every single word I say

I want to love you, but now I'm too

 afraid

My soul is not yet empty. you are still

 there.

I dont want you to go and leave it bare.

I know you don't love me back

But I hope that you still care.

Don't leave me in this dark

Don't force me to turn my back

After all this time I know

I'm gonna have to deal with being

 alone.

Understand

That this isnt just in my head

You say I don't know you

But I think it's you who doesnt know

 me.

Heeeelp me

I mean every word I say

I want to love you, please don't go

 away

Tell me the truth

Tell me everything

I'll tell you one thing

I'm sorry

Something this song can't explain

I wish you could see

What was and is truly inside of me.

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