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What Do You Want? V. Johnson

Poetry By: magicfoot2011

Idk what to do anymore.

Submitted:Nov 15, 2012    Reads: 9    Comments: 1    Likes: 1   

You say you care,

that you'd miss me.

I know the truth,

know you're lying.

How can you care,

if all you do is hurt?

I never wanted this,

but you made it worse.

My life wasn't bad,

but then I messed up.

I know I have to realize,

how big the mess really is.

It's starting to get better,

but slowly day by day.

I can't stand to look in the mirror,

see my father's face in mine.

I can't stand the fact,

that I'm no normal.

I just want to fit in,

want to feel loved.

Please accept me,

for the person I am.

Even if it's bad,

Ican't help who I am.

My past made me this,

if it's good or bad,

I'll never know.

Hiding in a shell of poetry,

in a shell of words,

I keep to myself.

Never really showing my face,

keeping myself hidden.

I love the people I'm around,

hate the person I've become.

Black depression raises and ugly hand,

drapes itself over my being,

taking over who I was,

taking control of my mind and body.

This isn't me.

I'm screaming and crying,

trying to get away,

being pushed back to a corner.

I show you my struggle,

each and every day,

yet you still lock me out.


I can't be me,

if I'm locked up like this.

Being held prisoner,

inside my own mind.

Can't escape the chains,

that depressionhas put on me.

Trying to rip out of this faux skin,

never really knowing what to expect.

You can't keep doing this to me,

pushing me away when I need you.

Hold me near to your heart,

never let me go.

You push me away,

never really loving me,

hoping that I died.

I wake up and see you,

hoping that you die,

hoping my reflection isn't true.

I see your face in mine,

hating myself until I look away.

I look just like you,

holding ever feature.

You always lie,

never really wanting to care.

I haope you die soon,

so I can be rid of you.



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