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Time To Hold It In And Not Let It Out

Poetry By: SynethGurl
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This is how each and everyone i talk to changed.


Submitted:Jun 7, 2011    Reads: 48    Comments: 6    Likes: 3   


My two sisters became more of what we swore we never be

preppy bitches who doesn't give a shit about each other.

I am the only one that hasn't changed.

The guy I love with all my heart

falls in love with another

the way he acts changes toward me

He isn't as happy to see me

he puts up a act

a wall to block me out

a part of him i shall never be able to reach

My real family mostly cousin's

hate me for hating them

The only person that hasn't managed to change

is my beautiful sister Cecelia

she's still around

she still is happy to talk to me

happy to fix my problems

Happy to see me smile

I need time to get away from this stupid ass drama

you would think that things would change

The guy i love tells me who i can talk to

the people to block

with no disregard that its my sister and brother

I wish i wasn't so in love with him

so i can say something other then okay

then go cry about it later so he doesn't know i was

I wish someone help me have a backbone

to stand up for myself

Now i can't even do that for

my sister and brother

cause The lover in this story

can walk all over me controlling my actions

no remorse for them

he knows he has power over me

I obey his every whim

i get no choice

my choices are do what he says or lose him forever

which one do you think i chosed?

I'm afriad i'm going to be walked all over my whole life

i don't know how to say no

to walk away

gain what was rightfully mine

my power to speak for myself

a power that i gave to someone else

even after writing all this

it ain't going to change

he forever has my power in his hand

if he choices to he can break me to the point

i'm nothing more then a slave

on my knees

obeying

begging

I feel like i am nothing better then a measly slave

I should just strip my clothes

get on my knees and obey

like in the Anne Rice Novels

Claiming of Sleeping Beauty

thats me naked

embarrassed

used

punished

neglected

thrown away





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