My two sisters became more of what we swore we never be
preppy bitches who doesn't give a shit about each other.
I am the only one that hasn't changed.
The guy I love with all my heart
falls in love with another
the way he acts changes toward me
He isn't as happy to see me
he puts up a act
a wall to block me out
a part of him i shall never be able to reach
My real family mostly cousin's
hate me for hating them
The only person that hasn't managed to change
is my beautiful sister Cecelia
she's still around
she still is happy to talk to me
happy to fix my problems
Happy to see me smile
I need time to get away from this stupid ass drama
you would think that things would change
The guy i love tells me who i can talk to
the people to block
with no disregard that its my sister and brother
I wish i wasn't so in love with him
so i can say something other then okay
then go cry about it later so he doesn't know i was
I wish someone help me have a backbone
to stand up for myself
Now i can't even do that for
my sister and brother
cause The lover in this story
can walk all over me controlling my actions
no remorse for them
he knows he has power over me
I obey his every whim
i get no choice
my choices are do what he says or lose him forever
which one do you think i chosed?
I'm afriad i'm going to be walked all over my whole life
i don't know how to say no
to walk away
gain what was rightfully mine
my power to speak for myself
a power that i gave to someone else
even after writing all this
it ain't going to change
he forever has my power in his hand
if he choices to he can break me to the point
i'm nothing more then a slave
on my knees
obeying
begging
I feel like i am nothing better then a measly slave
I should just strip my clothes
get on my knees and obey
like in the Anne Rice Novels
Claiming of Sleeping Beauty
thats me naked
embarrassed
used
punished
neglected
thrown away
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