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Wave, Read, then die in the Night

Poetry By: tika123love

Tags: Pain, Confusion

This is about when your feelings are so bottled up that you feel the need to explode and just disappear.
When someone you love never really stopped loving you, it seems, maybe they've stopped showing it.

Submitted:Apr 8, 2012    Reads: 11    Comments: 0    Likes: 0   

I only wish I could speak the words that are pounding in my brain,
When I can't but I need to, I'm just going so insane
I see you every other day, and there's so much to say
To you, I'm just a person, I'm just a robot,
I've no feelings. So I tell you there's nothing on my mind
What I hate is how I have to lie. I just say, "I'm okay."
When I know I'm not, everyone's got a question I answer
a lot. "You okay? How are you?" "I'm okay"
Here's the truth-
I've never felt so torn apart,
I tell myself it's you I don't need,
but what hurts the most is your company,
I guess that I just love this pain,
'Cause I stay and I wait and I wait and wait
but you never ever show and when you do, I'm not here
It's like I can hear you in my ear, say you don't love me
But you always come back
'Cause I'm so lonely
All I want is to have you back
I get so jealous when you're not with me
How I hate all these feelings,
What're you doing to me?
I wish I could get the courage to tell you,
That I'm better off without you-
But no, you make it so hard to breathe
And you know, but you just suffacate me.
I try, believe me I try. So hard, to say,
"Leave me alone today."
And I know how much you say you love me, you
need me, you can't be without me
But you still push me away
You tell me "You cry, I cry"
But how come these tears are still alone
If so, you never show yours, they've got a home?
I put a fake smile on for the show
when I know you won't watch,
You're just a passerby
thinking "Oh she's fine. No need to say hi"
And I start to wonder if our tears bring us closer
then I realize I'm still crying and you're still so far away
So, no, maybe one day- I will finally be the one in my dreams
who stands up and this I will read.
Saying, "This is dedicated to you. I've always loved you. Goodbye."
Wave, read, then die in the night.


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