death of you

I miss you , but your gone & ive gone wrong I miss being that good little girl that belongs in this world but now im corrupted my vision on life disrupted the things ive been threw the pain I feel is sadly so real ur my mom and now you’ve disapeard right out of the clear I want you to hear the nice things I have to say I want to escape & get away I wish I would have gotten to know the side of you that every one has grown to love but I onley know the addict  that puts me in a panic ill never forget the day you tried to take me away from my home so u could go to a shelter u put me threw hell , and now i sell my sole beacause of this whole that yerns for you I now u loved me yes I do but I feel like you chose heroin over me so its hard to move on from I was so young & now im reckless breathless alone hurting the ones I love just like you I do exactly what you do like mother like daughter hey its what you taught her ? im disturbed & ill never be good enough beacause I will never let myself be good enough im to nscared to change this fuck up is to comfterbal im crazy & the hurt will phase me its changed me I can no longer feel happy when the thougt of you makes me feel so crappy I love you I think but the things you let happen to me turn me pink when I smoke I float but sober I sink  I just wanna drink but ive nbeen clean for a almos a month but id throw it away just to say I feel better I don’t want to blink bc someone else I love might just walk away so I live for today , I just wanna get away that’s it I have nothing else to say