"Psst! Have you forgotten me so soon?" "Just
hang in there I will be with you in a sec!" I replied to the
other me as I passed her by carrying a laundry basket, I needed
to get the clothes packed away, and really I was in no mood for
arguments and big discussions today.
As I packed away the laundry I could hear the
sea rushing to and from the shore, a sound I always loved, where
I always found comfort for my lost soul, even though at times it
made me sad, very sad! 'Why does she want to talk today of all
days?" "I've made up my mind, no need to think it over, if I'm
wrong I aint right, no need to look no further, This aint lust,
this is love.' But..??" "But what?" the other me would
What I hated most about the other me…I could
never fool her, or even try to get away without answering first.
My mom always said, "the eyes are a mirror of the soul!" so true
this was. I was wondering what the conversation would lead to
today? We always ended up in an argument, maybe today will be
different. I thought with a long drawn out sigh. I hated it when
she said "are you always going to keep 'Chasing Pavements' ?" she
knew exactly every pain I felt inside my soul, the insecurity,
the not knowing, the want and need to know the outcome, the will
I be hurt again, is this just a game, and…and…and! The other me
knew it all, everything, completely and
Why? Why was I left with this mirror, was this
my punishment or was it just facing the plain truth every time
those brown eyes stared back at me looking right inside my soul
and knowing my thoughts? Thoughts I never wanted to face,
thoughts I rather shied away from. 'If I tell the world, I'll
never say enough, cause it was not said to you. And that's
exactly what I need to do, if I am in love with you.' "Ah! But in
return how sure are you?"
"What about your health huh?" "What do you mean
now, why this question?'" Just wondering!" "Oh! Well I'll keep on
fighting it, I need never and want never to go through all that
again, do you understand?" "I guess!" "What the hell you want me
to do?" '"Do you want me to give up, or should I just keep
chasing pavements?" "Even if it leads nowhere, or would it be a
waste, even if I knew my place should I leave it there?" "No!
that's not what I am trying to say or tell you, cant you see are
you so blind, or just so in love that you don't see the dangers?"
"Look my friend…just let it be, "I'll build myself up, and fly
around in circles, wait then as my heart drops and my back begins
to tingle." '
"You know of course that home is where your
heart is?" "Yes I do and so…elaborate that we can be on the same
wave lengths ~~ " I was just thinking that you should talk about
it, get clarity. You know that you cannot dream alone and that
dreams are made when sleeping. Put the puzzle of heart together
Girl. don't leave it until it may be to late!" "Thanks for the
advice, I really appreciate it and will give it some thought, I
promise you this, okay?" "I really have to go now, other me, I
have lots to do and I can see where this is leading to, your eyes
never lie to me!" "see ya! Bye for now!"