I fell in love with you from the moment our eyes met. How could I not, you were so easy to fall in love with. I wouldn’t have cared if you were black, white, rich or poor, even if you were a man or a woman. I fell in love with the whole of you, your heart, your soul, your mind. You were so very beautiful inside and out. Your skin glowed; your eyes were bright and full of life. I’ll never forget the way your hair shone in the sunlight, streaks of blonde glinting, almost sparkling like a halo around your head. Your love for life was so apparent; your energy was palpable when you entered the room. What really attracted me the most though was your vulnerability. There was an innocence and naivety about you that was very appealing to me.
That first time we met I saw you enquiring about me to your friends. I had a bad reputation and your friends warned you that I was bad news. I could tell this intrigued you even more. You couldn’t take your eyes off me the whole evening even though I was there with someone else. I could tell I made your heart race when I was near you.
You stayed away from me for a while but I knew if I kept showing up in the end you would give me a chance.
Our first date didn’t go well and I thought there was no way you’d see me again but the next week you agreed to give me another shot. What a night that was! That night we became lovers and it’s a night you would never forget. Our love and attraction to each other was like nothing you’d ever experienced before. Your feelings for me overwhelmed you, I could see it in your eyes, it was like you had come alive! You wondered if you would ever be the same again.
Soon, we were spending all our time together. You came to realise that you didn’t need other people in your life. I was all you needed. I was your best friend, your mother, your father, your lover, your soul mate. Other people tried to take you away from me but it always filled my heart with joy when you came running back to me. You soon realised that I could solve all your problems, no one else could comfort you the way I did. We spent our days making love, holding each other, talking, dreaming, soaring through the days and nights on a fluffy cloud of ecstasy. We had never been so happy and fulfilled.
Then one day you told me you were going away, just for a day, a holiday you said. Even soul mates need their own space, time apart, to appreciate our love even more. I felt crushed as you walked out the door.
So you spent a day away from me. You met up with some friends and went to the beach. But you couldn’t get me out of your head. You smiled and laughed but there was no light in your eyes. You didn’t like admitting it but you couldn’t be happy unless I was there with you. You told yourself that if you really wanted to, you could spend time away from me, its just you didn’t want to. You left your friends at the beach and came running back into my arms.
As soon as you came in through the door I knew that you would never be able to leave me again. I had you in my spell. You were mine forever, to have and to hold, until death do us part. As you ran towards me, I took you and hugged you. I hugged you just a little bit too tight. If you had seen my face you would have seen the glimmer in my eyes, my wry smile. For now, even though you didn’t know it yet, you were no longer my lover but my victim. You see, it’s now becoming clear to both of us that our relationship is not a healthy one. In fact it’s killing you, I am killing you but there is nothing you can do about it. It is my intention to murder you. I will do it slowly and you will be powerless to stop me. If you try and run from me I will always find you, I will always be there somewhere in the background and you’ll be forever looking over your shoulder. Your life without me will feel empty and meaningless. You will suffer actual physical pain being apart from me. I will be in your mind every waking moment, you will crave my body with every ounce of your being. Besides, who would want you now? Your hair hangs around your forlorn face, unwashed and uncared for, your sallow complexion ages you way beyond your years, your skin seems to hang off your bony frame. No one else would love you like I do.
You never realised it before but you can’t have a relationship with me and carry on relationships with others too. It is all me or nothing at all. So you have a choice. Stay with me and I will give you everything you need and be everything you need but know that in return you must give up all you knew and loved in your past life. You will have no time for work, family or friends, you will not need to worry about make up or clothes, you won’t even have to worry about a place to live because as long as you have me, you won’t care about anything else.
In fact you don’t need to make this decision; you have already made your choice, you have already devoted your life to me, your lady heroin……..