An Emotional Journey.

A Emotional Journey. I can't stand this waiting to getting it all together, I'm trying my best to speed things up, for the rush, To get things done, to where I am and what I should be doing , and even when I spend a lot of time, Looking inwards for the answers , but ! Nothing seems to be happening, I'm not even close to what, I want, it's so annoying Expecially if iv used a lot of patience ' but I know I have to tackle this , Prolonged issue and would if I could Head First ! . I just want to pick my self up and start all over again , but all it seems to be bringing me is a, " Heart Filled with a Fiery furnace" which seems to be my emotional Melting Pot " . Iv had enough of things breaking down on me and always running on empty. With nothing ever responding and are constantly in delay , I've even tried establishing, Myself to try finding all the answers, which has taken more than a while and I'm still no Where near reaching a conclusion , To try and reinforce it all. Is there an answer in me into solving this journey, or am I being tested to be , Made or become Mad !