The mind zone

When the mind zone goes and confusion takes over bringing you down steeper and steeper till your at that point Of no return or even the want to return to the same old tired and running out mind bug, Of being stuck in a rut of mind bogglling issues thinking about this & that & where does it get you,no where.( Everyone knows that ) but it still doesn't stop IT! From happening , suppressing its self deeper in mind to thots that Subconsciously take over sinking you further & further into what seems your stuck in quick -sand... I just want to get by what ever time I have left in this world and Then begin the real-journey in the heavens of almighty god, Where there lies a world of peace & tranquility No evilness, no sins, no jealousy, no bitterness,no back biting Free from this false world of lies and deceit dishonesty and to Much corruption, & most of all the concept of ones status who For some mean more than life it's self, without even giving a thot to the consequences & actions of their deeds... Why am I always putting my life on HOLD!!! As if there's no tomorrow Why do these bouts of sadness take place upon me Expecially when there's nothing to be sad about, what? Is it That makes me come out of my entwisted shell From time to time, when knowingly or un-knowingly I'm bound to revert right back into it again & no amount of persuasion Or comforting works , can , or will coax me back out again...