Do you have any idea of how it feels to love somebody so much that it hurts? to love with every beat in your saddened empty heart. So much so that you couldn’t bring yourself to even tell them, because you have so much fear of how they will react. Knowing perfectly well they don’t feel the same way.
Knowing that they never would, or that they ever could think of you that way. Knowing that they feel this love so strong for another, to see their smile inspired by the very person you hate, but also the very same person you idolize each and every mistake of. Because they are that person who the one you love, looks at, and sees perfection.
If only things were simple. If only i could make him see just how wonderful he is to me, then maybe i wouldn't be so fucking lonely.